Okay, this no-wifi-living-on-cellular-hotspot thing is such a bitch. :c So much waiting just so I can grab the embed code of a video and get here aaaaa but I finally made it!!!
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If there's one thing I have good luck in, it's having the friends that I do. ><
Gemini, special guest singer Fome, and special guest animator Razzy surprised me again this year with another birthday gift AND I AM UNWORTHY. Such suave oppars!!!! (includes mimz and chiisano)
Gemini is besttttttt and Fome and Razzy are also bestttttt waaaaaa
I was hesitant at first because I haven't actually ever sung in a youtaite chorus battle battle before —although I helped out with mixing here and there—but now I think I'm looking forward to it..! Gemini will be participating in the upcoming chorus battle Lyrica System Online with all 6 vocalists, plus A BANGIN' AWESOME VISUAL TEAM. I've been mixing nearly nonstop for the past few days for our entry. I think we're gonna put out something we'll be proud of so I'm starting to get excited.
For now please enjoy Devil before we make our big battle comeback. :>
SQUEALS IN DELIGHT AT GEMINI
Vocals (In Order of Appearance)
Chiisa https://www.youtube.com/user/Chiisana...
Mimi https://www.youtube.com/user/mimimois...
Ryan https://www.youtube.com/user/RyanEatPho
Jay https://www.youtube.com/user/jaysingyou
Jeffrey https://www.youtube.com/user/jevacado
Fome https://www.youtube.com/user/Fome
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Illustrations: かぎお
http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=37...
Animation: https://www.youtube.com/user/itsRazzy...
Mix: Chiisa
omg......
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahHhaha
There was a business trip to Boston and Kansas City that I passed on because it overlapped with my time off for AX, but then it moved to the week before and I said yes because YAY PAID TRAVEL IS SO COOL! And I've never been to those places before! I'd totally regret it if I didn't take the chance!!
oh
that's one less week for me to work on cosplay and all the other shit before AX
OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHH
JUNE IS DEFINITELY HERE
Not the worst, but usually my floor is ~spotless~.
Fabrics and patterns and interfacing, oh my--
Ombre no. 1!
I don't know how I forgot to make this post LOL.... It's something I've been anticipating for a while.
A week and a half ago, I got my hair dyed ombre to pinkish coral! *___* It only took one bleach job and 2 hours total~
The pink has already faded out a lot, but that's cool with me 'cause I initially wanted it more peach than pink anyway. :'D
Cospray for me pls
Aaaand now it's 4 AM. Why did this life choose me again?!???
I blame my lack of proper wifi at home for my increase in productivity and crazy. Mostly the crazy. All year, I've been saying that I don't know if I'll make a new cosplay for Anime Expo (July 4th) this year because lack of time and motivation/enough interest in a character. Then last week, I watched episode 4 of Macross Delta, during which the idol protagonists introduced cute new performance outfits that are light blue, black, and white....... @____@ And without real wifi at home, over the week I had enough time and crazy to think, HMMMMMMM WHAT IF I COSPLAYED THIS BECAUSE THIS IS MAYBE PLAUSIBLE.....
And now just today, I've put in the order for the wig, scouted for fabric, thrifted in attempt to find fitting boots, and stayed up late combing through my leftover cosplay materials and making a tie for the costume... AND I recorded+edited a decent amount of lines. I haven't been this productive on a weekend in eons!!!
Oh yeah I should mention that I'm currently in two singing battles, joined a few collabs, and am working full time. I HAVE 3 WEEKS TIL AX. AM I PREPARED TO MASO AGAIN OMFG........... I hate this why do I do this when cosplay is fuuuckiinnn expeeensiive and time-consuming and yet somehow always persuades me to accept it back into my life.
Food for Thought: Social Producing
Here goes for the first time using dictation to blog on my smartphone. Trying to bypass slow and typo-laden mobile typing hehehe. 8D I'm sleepy so this is kinda rambly and nonstructural. Does this even count as food for thought idk
I had the realization today that learning more about being a producer (specifically for video shoots) has been a particularly big factor in shaping my social conduct. This comes in both observing my coworkers who are great producers--and even greater people--and in preparation/anticipation since my coworkers want me to eventually do producing too. It sounded scary at first because it's a social role, but now that I'm able to be more sociable and outgoing(?), the ideal traits of a producer have become something more of a goal.
A producer is someone that manages people. A responsible person that makes sure everyone has the information they need and has answers to questions, but is also firm as to assure things get done. Respectful to others and mindful of the balance between not being insulting and being honest. An accommodating person that cares that everyone is comfortable and not left out. Introductions are imperative--whether it's having the courtesy to always introduce yourself, or being sure that those around you have been introduced to each other rather than awkward confusion. Get to know your collaborators and don't be shy! It requires being a little fake tbh. Even if you're tired or frustrated, you have to learn to put that aside temporarily. Encourage others!
And it's important for a producer to express gratitude. :> Nothing should go unappreciated~
I think for a while already this was the kind of person that I wanted to be. But it was maybe hard to put into words or to sum up into one thing until now haha. I noticed it's really affected my attitude recently especially in working with people for singing collabs (ok more like being angry at disrespect and i just wanna scream at them TO ACT AS IF THEY HAD THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF A PRODUCER DAMMIT), but it also goes beyond work and I think should apply to social interaction in general.
So I think, even though I'm not particularly aiming to become a video producer, I want to be a producer-type of person? Ayyyy I've figured out my first real social model !!!
Let's see how I can learn to live by it uvu;; So strange that I'm mostly okay with talking to people now~
♛19
Hiiii lol at this point, I'm staying at work much later than needed solely to leech off the wifi. Sad life. It's been a fuckin month so we better get proper wifi at home again soon because I've way too much to catch up on. Good thing I've been busy! I just finished week 1 of working full time officially, and it's been good! It didn't feel routinely at all because I also helped on some shoots, not just staying cooped up in the office. As the videos were of science experiments and cocktail making, they were pretty interesting shoots.
Ranks came out for round 1 of PRODUCE90—and tbh since I haven't been actively covering k-pop recently and didn't promote myself as much as many participants did, I thought maybe I wouldn't make the cut? Plus, I did a bad and.....always forgot to vote each day....I think I only voted twice in total lol orz..........
BUT NOPE, sooooomehowwwww?? I ranked 19 out of 76. And the top 50 move on to round 2.
WOW.
MUCH THANKS TO WHOEVER VOTED FOR ME..... I'M PRETTY SHOCKED LOL.
THAT'S PRETTY AWESOME OF YOU; THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!♥
So now onto round 2 :D;;;;; I wonder when I'll get to record now that I'm working full time hrm--
Ranks came out for round 1 of PRODUCE90—and tbh since I haven't been actively covering k-pop recently and didn't promote myself as much as many participants did, I thought maybe I wouldn't make the cut? Plus, I did a bad and.....always forgot to vote each day....I think I only voted twice in total lol orz..........
BUT NOPE, sooooomehowwwww?? I ranked 19 out of 76. And the top 50 move on to round 2.
WOW.
MUCH THANKS TO WHOEVER VOTED FOR ME..... I'M PRETTY SHOCKED LOL.
THAT'S PRETTY AWESOME OF YOU; THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!♥
So now onto round 2 :D;;;;; I wonder when I'll get to record now that I'm working full time hrm--
【4µla】 LA chA TA
Holy hell I'm alive hi hello. I had a very busy first half of the month during which I traveled to Phoenix for a business trip and then New York for a wedding and it was all fun BUT I WANT TO UPLOAD PICTURES AND I CAN'T DO THAT RIGHT NOW WHEN MY INTERNET IS SO FUCKED UP omg Q_Q It took ~20 minutes of waiting and reconnecting before I could even get onto my blog site. I'd be lucky if this post even goes through LOL.
This is a life I've escaped for years and I cannot believe that it has chosen me again.
............I joined a new online singing battle. HAHAHA. It's been really fucking long.
PRODUCE90 is the big competition happening right now in the youtube k-pop coverist community, and it's based off Produce 101—the girlgroup trainee survival show that I WAS ADDICTED TO AND LOVED. (I SRSLY RECOMMEND THE SHOW. SO MANY FEELS.) To join, participants submitted an audition and were ranked A thru F; then we all sang Produce 101's anthem "Pick Me" which was scripted according to rank, starting with A's only singing, then adding B's, and so on.
Here's a link to the "Pick Me" cover with the 77 participants that sent in lines. :>
And the Rank Reveal! Somehow I got rank A.. QuQ;;;
For round 1, all of the A ranks got to be leaders for their own groups, and we had to choose a song from the selection of girlgroup debut songs that were performed on Produce 101. Then we got tofight for choose our teammates, AND I LUCKED THE HELL OUT because my Gemini gurls Chiisana and Mimi were still available when it was my turn so I snagged them for myself bwuahahahaha. Rounding out the team are Nana who's our fourth vocalist, and Lia who came on board to bless us with a gooorgeous video. *____* And I mixed!
Our entry is finally done and uploaded, and I'm super proud of my team. They're all amazing and it was great working with them. So please check it out and support my teammates by voting for them here! You can vote once a day, for as many people as you like. ^^
Also Chiisana came up with the brilliant group name 4µla because the original singers are f(x), we're the formula for a great team, and.. we're Love Live! trash.
This is a life I've escaped for years and I cannot believe that it has chosen me again.
............I joined a new online singing battle. HAHAHA. It's been really fucking long.
PRODUCE90 is the big competition happening right now in the youtube k-pop coverist community, and it's based off Produce 101—the girlgroup trainee survival show that I WAS ADDICTED TO AND LOVED. (I SRSLY RECOMMEND THE SHOW. SO MANY FEELS.) To join, participants submitted an audition and were ranked A thru F; then we all sang Produce 101's anthem "Pick Me" which was scripted according to rank, starting with A's only singing, then adding B's, and so on.
Here's a link to the "Pick Me" cover with the 77 participants that sent in lines. :>
And the Rank Reveal! Somehow I got rank A.. QuQ;;;
For round 1, all of the A ranks got to be leaders for their own groups, and we had to choose a song from the selection of girlgroup debut songs that were performed on Produce 101. Then we got to
Our entry is finally done and uploaded, and I'm super proud of my team. They're all amazing and it was great working with them. So please check it out and support my teammates by voting for them here! You can vote once a day, for as many people as you like. ^^
Also Chiisana came up with the brilliant group name 4µla because the original singers are f(x), we're the formula for a great team, and.. we're Love Live! trash.
I'm twenty-three, I'm a riddle ♪
A day late, but I'm now this awesome IU song that I totally considered covering for this occasion—if only I had the recording time haha.
I'M ALSO JUST AS BIPOLAR FYI :D.......
This is the 9th year I've done my annual birthday selfie!!
What you're seeing in this picture is my new toy! Errr, zombie device. I'm a victim now qq
My parents got me my very first ever smartphone for my birthday lmao.. It's an iPhone SE~ I still think that I function fine even just with a dumbphone, but it's good timing now since I'm going through a slew of life changes and having data will be useful when I go on business trips for my upcoming full time job.....
Who dis 15 year old gremlin????? And what was she thinking buying a t-shirt that she can only wear once a year? How is it that my upper body hasn't grown a bit since then??
the rain is in my head
the rain is in my head
falling grimly, burning
with rusting floodgates it is met
into ghouls all thoughts are turning
Lovelyz - Destiny (A New Trilogy)
YESSSSS my princesses Lovelyz have made their comeback!! This gross fangirl is very happy with it *u* They've grown so much since Candy Jelly Love but I love that they still have a distinct sound. It's rich, intricate, soothing, a bit retro, melodic, feminine, and innocent/cute without being obnoxious. And what really makes their music unique is that there's always some melancholic undertone or twist that adds depth behind the seemingly sweet songs. Not to mention digipedi who's been behind all of their MVs expertly reflects all of this in their visuals for an amazing Lovelyz brand of aesthetic.
But this time with Destiny (My Earth) they've really embraced melancholic—and it's pretty reminiscent of their "big brother group" Infinite's sound but more of a feminine take of it. And that's awesome aaaaa
Also loving the extended metaphor ;u; The lyrics are basically: Why do you circle around her (the sun) when I revolve around you like the moon? You're my earth and the gravity that pulls me. I wish I could stand between you and her, and give you a ring of light. (INSERT GRAPHICS OF SOLAR ECLIPSE)
01. Moonrise - 00:00
02. Destiny (My Earth) - 00:41
03. Splash - 04:15
04. Bookmark - 07:46
05. 1cm - 11:18
06. Take Care of My Heart - 15:01
07. Doll - 18:57
I haven't yet listened to the rest of the album (A New Trilogy) enough to really know it, but I like it so far! Some parts feel bland but I'll see how my feelings change when lyric translations are out.
Some fans have said that there's kind of a Clamp vibe? Lovelyz' sound has always leaned more J-pop than K-pop, but AS THE HUGE CLAMP FAN I AM, this delights the fuck out of me!!! I think I do hear it at times!
For me, the album standouts include Bookmark (07:46) for those who like sentimental ballads and drama OSTs, and Babysoul does a soft rap in it! It's like the second coming of Circle, which is a great song ^^ and coincidentally has a lot of meaning overlaps with Destiny.
1cm (11:18) isn't one of my favorites so far but I like the quirky retro video game-sounding synths. Kind of like the Ah-Choo intro. And this one kind of makes me think of Cardcaptor Sakura by Clamp which is a win to me..!
Take Care of My Heart (15:01) is growing on me a lot. The verses are undeniably Lovelyz style, and then the chorus is catchy and uplifting!
AND WE CAN'T NOT TALK ABOUT Doll (18:57)—the song behind Lovelyz' ethereal, film aesthetic, somewhat eerie Prologue Film with lyrics like "I can't fall sleep yet you dream peacefully without me. I'm your doll in the corner of the room, quietly waiting for you." But I feel like without the mysterious-looking video, the eerie effect has mostly dissipated and now it just feels like a heartbroken fairytale lullaby song, and FUCK YEAH I HELLA DIG THAT. It sounds so soothing!
Hmmmm I don't think I'm going to try to cover any of these songs like I did with For You unfortunately ahah. No time to work on a solo, and none of them are screaming at me to sing them. xD But I will enjoy listening~ Can't wait for the second and third legs of Lovelyz' new trilogy. ^^
But this time with Destiny (My Earth) they've really embraced melancholic—and it's pretty reminiscent of their "big brother group" Infinite's sound but more of a feminine take of it. And that's awesome aaaaa
Also loving the extended metaphor ;u; The lyrics are basically: Why do you circle around her (the sun) when I revolve around you like the moon? You're my earth and the gravity that pulls me. I wish I could stand between you and her, and give you a ring of light. (INSERT GRAPHICS OF SOLAR ECLIPSE)
02. Destiny (My Earth) - 00:41
03. Splash - 04:15
04. Bookmark - 07:46
05. 1cm - 11:18
06. Take Care of My Heart - 15:01
07. Doll - 18:57
I haven't yet listened to the rest of the album (A New Trilogy) enough to really know it, but I like it so far! Some parts feel bland but I'll see how my feelings change when lyric translations are out.
Some fans have said that there's kind of a Clamp vibe? Lovelyz' sound has always leaned more J-pop than K-pop, but AS THE HUGE CLAMP FAN I AM, this delights the fuck out of me!!! I think I do hear it at times!
For me, the album standouts include Bookmark (07:46) for those who like sentimental ballads and drama OSTs, and Babysoul does a soft rap in it! It's like the second coming of Circle, which is a great song ^^ and coincidentally has a lot of meaning overlaps with Destiny.
1cm (11:18) isn't one of my favorites so far but I like the quirky retro video game-sounding synths. Kind of like the Ah-Choo intro. And this one kind of makes me think of Cardcaptor Sakura by Clamp which is a win to me..!
Take Care of My Heart (15:01) is growing on me a lot. The verses are undeniably Lovelyz style, and then the chorus is catchy and uplifting!
AND WE CAN'T NOT TALK ABOUT Doll (18:57)—the song behind Lovelyz' ethereal, film aesthetic, somewhat eerie Prologue Film with lyrics like "I can't fall sleep yet you dream peacefully without me. I'm your doll in the corner of the room, quietly waiting for you." But I feel like without the mysterious-looking video, the eerie effect has mostly dissipated and now it just feels like a heartbroken fairytale lullaby song, and FUCK YEAH I HELLA DIG THAT. It sounds so soothing!
Hmmmm I don't think I'm going to try to cover any of these songs like I did with For You unfortunately ahah. No time to work on a solo, and none of them are screaming at me to sing them. xD But I will enjoy listening~ Can't wait for the second and third legs of Lovelyz' new trilogy. ^^
Probably mostly an adult
Man, I can't believe this long, long, emotional week is over. ;A; It's been so busy—I worked past 8:30 PM on three days because I'm handling a big project as main editor for the first time. I've been drained in several ways, lacking sleep, stressed out, and I guess it totally showed.... Three times I was asked in the past two weeks if I was sick, because I look like such a tired mess OTL
The hardest day was Friday though.
I had to finally tell my boss that I'm going to quit the part time accounting job I've been working at for almost 5 years. ;;;;
Although it went well and my boss is happy for me—bless her heart—it took a lot struggling not to let the tears fall out of my eyes during that difficult, sentimental, hopeful, sad conversation. Fuck. I've been crying a lot haha ^^;;; It's not simply a workplace. I've got emotional attachments to the people, my friends, the environment, the memories..... The past 5 years have been so pivotal in my growth as a person; the current me that I know has always attended this accounting job and has always been surrounded by these people. I don't know how to accept this much change yet. ;_; When I started working there, I was the company's first intern and my dad brought me in because my parents wanted me to try working instead of sitting at home. I was merely an 18 year old child that graduated high school with no direction in life, no responsibilities, no social skills, no belief that I could have any talent that mattered, no desire to ever grow up or change.
My last week at this job will be the week of my birthday—I'm going to turn 23.
And I'm going to start working full time at my currently part time video production job. ;^; There'll be a lot of good opportunities. I even go on business trips! Now I'm getting big projects to edit too! Considering how many film majors like me are freelancing or struggling to earn steady income, I'm pretty damn lucky. I should probably treat my professor who referred me to this job to a meal. xD He gave me such an incredible kickstart to what seems like it will become a career for me in video production. Weird. Now I don't even have a knee-jerk reaction to thinking that I'm probably mostly an adult with an actual meaningful future. Weeeiiird.
The hardest day was Friday though.
I had to finally tell my boss that I'm going to quit the part time accounting job I've been working at for almost 5 years. ;;;;
Although it went well and my boss is happy for me—bless her heart—it took a lot struggling not to let the tears fall out of my eyes during that difficult, sentimental, hopeful, sad conversation. Fuck. I've been crying a lot haha ^^;;; It's not simply a workplace. I've got emotional attachments to the people, my friends, the environment, the memories..... The past 5 years have been so pivotal in my growth as a person; the current me that I know has always attended this accounting job and has always been surrounded by these people. I don't know how to accept this much change yet. ;_; When I started working there, I was the company's first intern and my dad brought me in because my parents wanted me to try working instead of sitting at home. I was merely an 18 year old child that graduated high school with no direction in life, no responsibilities, no social skills, no belief that I could have any talent that mattered, no desire to ever grow up or change.
My last week at this job will be the week of my birthday—I'm going to turn 23.
And I'm going to start working full time at my currently part time video production job. ;^; There'll be a lot of good opportunities. I even go on business trips! Now I'm getting big projects to edit too! Considering how many film majors like me are freelancing or struggling to earn steady income, I'm pretty damn lucky. I should probably treat my professor who referred me to this job to a meal. xD He gave me such an incredible kickstart to what seems like it will become a career for me in video production. Weird. Now I don't even have a knee-jerk reaction to thinking that I'm probably mostly an adult with an actual meaningful future. Weeeiiird.
[Review] Secret Key Haul First Impressions
YOOOOO I haven't done a post like this in a long time! Because I'm a sucker for anything related to Lovelyz, I went and ordered a mini haul from skincare/make-up brand Secret Key—which has blessed us with one of Lovelyz' first commercials, below. FUCK YEAH I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEM ;U;
These are the things I ordered!
Honestly I only really wanted the lip tint because I'm a sucker for pretty lip products, but HEY MAN, FREE SHIPPING OVER $49 hahahahahaha..ha.. It turned out fine since I'll need a toner replacement soon, and my liquid eyeliners and mascara have long dried up .... :'D
Is someone in trouble for packing my order wrong or is Secret Key just insanely generous? The sun cream and lip scrub aren't even sample size!! Maybe it's because they know I'm a lovelinus. ^^
These are the things I ordered!
- Flower Drop Tint Lip Powder - Red and Soft Pink ($11.32 for 2)
- SYN-AKE Anti Wrinkle & Whitening Toner ($25.04)
- Skinny Real Quick Eye Liner - Black ($10.29 for 2)
- Perfect Curling-heel Mascara ($7.17)
Honestly I only really wanted the lip tint because I'm a sucker for pretty lip products, but HEY MAN, FREE SHIPPING OVER $49 hahahahahaha..ha.. It turned out fine since I'll need a toner replacement soon, and my liquid eyeliners and mascara have long dried up .... :'D
ALSO some really nice deals happening on Secret Key!! All in all, I only paid $41.23 for a $75.43 value order. And still got free shipping! The Lovelyz coupon gave me 20% off, but the current one is "10% off + 10% mileage plus" until April 17th.
Not to mention the lip tints and eyeliner were part of an amazing 1 + 1 deal, which is still going!
Actually, I'm missing the brown eyeliner that I ordered so I'll see how customer service handles that.
But I ain't even mad because WOW I didn't expect all of these extra free gifts?!
- Nature Recipe Mask Pack - Aloe
- Chubby Sweets Lip Scrub
- UV CUT High Protection Sun Cream
- 24K Gold Premium First Essence x 2
Is someone in trouble for packing my order wrong or is Secret Key just insanely generous? The sun cream and lip scrub aren't even sample size!! Maybe it's because they know I'm a lovelinus. ^^
Straight up, the most interesting things I got in this package were:
1) the SYN-AKE toner which is supposedly synthetic snake venom which supposedly reduces wrinkles, and
2) the free 24K essence which seems to... actually have little gold flakes floating in it..... Has gold always been good for the skin, or is this just a really expensive gimmick?
I'll be doing a first impression review on the lip tint and eye liner under the cut. :> Warning: I don't know shit about make-up and there are many waaaay-too-close-up pictures of my face.
Still ranting.
It's been a while since I felt so propelled to write a post like this. In fact, what I'm about to say is essentially the exact same thing I felt and wrote two years ago; and the same shit happens and it still bothers me down to the moral level.
"(says mean things about other people in public twitter space)
(mocks them and encourages friends to do the same)
Oh I don't know why people think this community has negative drama.
They should just deal with it."
HOW IS THIS OKAY?
Why are we pushing the notion that bullying is normal and that the attacked just need to learn to "deal with it?"
Why is anyone encouraging cyberbullying at all?
How are we still disregarding that the people that are being mocked in public—some of whom even are having their names exposed—are real people with feelings, that will probably get hurt because they're our peers who can see the destructive things you write on your public space!
I'm sorry, but this isn't something to be proud of and to boast about to earn yourself the attention of fellow bullies. This isn't something that others should be admiring—what a shame when you can choose role models that don't take pride in harming others.
Is it not a telltale sign when people are constantly "leaving" because of negativity or creating attempts to battle or avoid it.. that we ought to try to spread less negativity? How about we grab the opportunity when seeing these attempts to instead improve ourselves?
"(says mean things about other people in public twitter space)
(mocks them and encourages friends to do the same)
Oh I don't know why people think this community has negative drama.
They should just deal with it."
HOW IS THIS OKAY?
Why are we pushing the notion that bullying is normal and that the attacked just need to learn to "deal with it?"
Why is anyone encouraging cyberbullying at all?
How are we still disregarding that the people that are being mocked in public—some of whom even are having their names exposed—are real people with feelings, that will probably get hurt because they're our peers who can see the destructive things you write on your public space!
I'm sorry, but this isn't something to be proud of and to boast about to earn yourself the attention of fellow bullies. This isn't something that others should be admiring—what a shame when you can choose role models that don't take pride in harming others.
Is it not a telltale sign when people are constantly "leaving" because of negativity or creating attempts to battle or avoid it.. that we ought to try to spread less negativity? How about we grab the opportunity when seeing these attempts to instead improve ourselves?
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