gurl quit frontin'

It's been a long [trivial] journey of being tempted to get front bangs, then determining that I would definitely not suit it or be able to maintain them, then lowkey considering it again, pondering over it a lot and being certain that it's too high maintenance for my lifestyle and people would think it's weird on me—and what did it all amount to? Me at 1 AM last Wednesday looking in the mirror before brushing my teeth, thinking about how aged my skin is and how my face will probably be soon to follow OH GOD I'M GONNA LOOK SO OLD SOON what if I become really old-looking without ever having a chance to try front bangs because I keep being scared that I look too old and too out-of-character for them and I'll regret the rest of my life-- ABORT THE TEETH BRUSHING EVA GRAB YOUR SCISSORS WE'RE DOING THIS RIGHT NOW WHILE WE'RE STILL FEELING IT OKAY YOLO snip snip snip OH MY GOD IT LOOKS AS SHITTY AS I KNEW IT WOULD what have i done!!!!

is exactly how it happened.

God.....god.......... This was a mistake. I have no idea how to style or maintain hair. It looks so bad in real life. Every little movement, every time I walk, with every small breeze, my bangs get fucked up in unpredictable, uncontrollable ways. They have a mind of their own, those forehead tentacles.

These days, I usually wash my hair in the morning after waking up late, then I'm too lazy to blow dry so I'll saunter into work late with wet hair and let it dry throughout the day. Luckily, my hair dries straight so I usually don't do any sort of styling. Now I can't do this anymore :c.... Pretty much every morning I have to spend time curling my bangs... Which means I gotta put on heat protection... And I can't even style them until my moisturizer absorbs into my forehead or it gets super greasy/sticky... But then my bangs have been greasy everyday anyway (like today, even tho I just washed them last night I DON'T GET IT AAAA) so I'll probably have to put on dry shampoo every night... It's a commitment......... And my brows get so itchy... And I am so constantly self conscious... W h y.

Blegh they look different all the time so here are a bunch of selfies before I call it quits on the bangs. =.= I've already decided that on most days, I'm just going to clip up my hair and not bother, and save the suffering for select special days.