Hello! Crazy; it's a random blog post! In this day and age!! Wow!
There's been too much of an ongoing trend that I'll only post when negative things happen, so I thought I should also take time to document some positive updates!
I'm actually doing quite well right now. 🫶 Almost night and day from when I hit a low point in April this year which I talked about in my previous post with all my goals to "rehabilitate" my life.
Of course I haven't achieved all these goals but I've made good enough progress that it feels like a lot has been restored for me — both mentally and physically. :))) Overall I think I usually have something positive to feel about each day, and the negatives aren't on my mind too often. In fact, the intrusive voice in my brain that yaps at me about escapism might be currently asleep. I hope they have a good rest forever!
My heart hasn't sent me palpitations in half a year! And while my head nerve still bothers me, it's no longer disruptive to my life so..... dare I say, this is the closest to "normal" I've felt in a long time? I still definitely need to exercise more though.
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Speaking of which: allow me to share about my day today! I had such a shockingly normal day LOL.
It started with a yummy brunch with some friends where I got a fried chicken & croffle and matcha latte. 😁 You can tell I'm doing well when I'm able to drink my beloved matcha lattes; my heart is in fine enough condition to handle it.
Then we watched the movie Primetime starring Robert Pattinson! That man is killing it in all his movies lately. (SOMEBODY GET THESE BEGGARS OUT OF HERE-----) Anyway, the film was enjoyable and really well produced. Practically every single shot had stunning cinematography — lots of creative stuff done! Acting and writing were phenomenal. It's beautiful when you can tell that intention has been poured into every detail in the process of making art.
Afterwards we... split up and went home? at 3 PM? on a Sunday? LOL
No plans or obligations, when I'm healthy, not recovering from a major event, AND had no deadlines to meet or any urgent project to work towards.....?
This does not happen usually. 😆 Up until yesterday I'd been working on chorus battle things, helping out with timing all the singing lines, and prior to that recording my own lines. (Yes I'm participating in a chorus battle again after 6 years; super exciting!) But last night I'd finished my part and handed the files over to Fome to start mixing.
So I decided to take advantage of having free time while the sun was out, and looked up parks I could take a walk in!
Unfortunately I touch grass so infrequently that upon seeing a nicely placed bench with a scenic view, all I can think about is that one video about the most beautiful sitting spots in Genshin Impact LMAO.
I adore this video and the person who created it, who has many other videos showcasing and analyzing various architecture in Genshin! It's amazing how they're able to see and appreciate the world around them, even if it's just the 3D models in a game...
Just lovely how they describe these "sitting spots" as intentional places where the game allows you to slow down and be immersed in the atmosphere you've earned.
Genshin Impact is still my comfort game btw. Love it, I'm caught up on the story, almost done maxing out exploration, and it's wild that we're in the endgame now! We're in Snezhnaya — the last of the seven nations that we set out to adventure in! Here's a recent sitting spot I sat in where you can watch the trains go by. ☺️
Honestly I didn't intend for the themes of this post to come full circle but they somehow do.
Today was such a healthy, pleasant, carefree day that it even slowed down enough for me to immerse myself in scenic atmospheres and sit here for a while to write an entire blog post. Which I never do anymore. Because my world moves too fast. Because my head can't stay still. My quiet sitting spot is usually nonexistent.
I would love to get back into blogging more though, not just as a way for me to unwind and put thoughts into words — but also because I miss having much of my life and projects recorded to look back on, to reminisce, to remind myself of how far I've come, to preserve anything that sparks joy to me that I may forget about later. Hopefully my motivations and life fluctuations will align more often 🤞
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Lastly, shout out to my friend Cody who accidentally triggered me into thinking a lot about this blog again... By pure coincidence he brought up journaling which led to me showing him this cursed site....... Now he knows too much about me and my darkest secrets, just like all of you kind folks on the internet that apparently read these for some reason. 😭 Thank you always!!
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(A reference to my childhood magical protection spell from this post — and yes since my Grand Archive friends found out about my singing youtube channel they oftentimes call me that I HATE ITTTTTT LOL) |
