The Reunion

I began writing this on August 22nd, the day after the described events, and very slowly continued it from October 5th!

When I found this draft, I so regretted that I didn't finish the post right away because I'm sure that what I'm able to convey now months later is drastically distanced from the feelings I had at that time. Sad to say I actually didn't even remember writing most of that draft—it took a while to jog my memory and put myself back in those shoes...... I wonder what else I would have written then.. 😭


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August 22nd, 2021:

Hi! It feels like it's been a long time since I wrote a truly personal post like this... To be frank, I don't look forward to writing it 😅 but what just passed is such a huge milestone and frequent occupant of my thoughts for the past two months—I think future me will thank myself for leaving this entry in the diary.

I........
I went to my high school 10 year reunion!!! Wild, I know!!

(fun fact: i got clip-on bangs—ye that's not my real hair—just for this bc of a bad haircut lol)

How was I comfortable going to an event during a pandemic, you ask? The venue is huge and not many RSVP'ed. Vaccination is almost universally supported locally and there is a mask mandate for public indoor places, of which the organizer sent a reminder beforehand—you're supposed to wear a mask except when eating or drinking. I went trusting that people were responsible and now I wonder if I'm too naive...? It began with everyone masked 'til eventually just me. Disappointing and scary. ><

(Edit: Though I tried to be safe, out of paranoia I also took a COVID test a couple days afterwards... and I was pretty mad about it so those peeps are damn lucky I tested negative. 😤)

o/

It's been so long since I updated... 😭 I saw a few relics that reminded me of things that—at some point or another in time—were all that I could think about. They defined a mini era in my life! And I so wish I sat down and wrote words about them.

I think I tend to feel pressured to make sure those posts are comprehensive and covers everything on the topic with perfect, thoughtful expression..... In retrospect, I would have preferred having jotted something messy than nothing at all. Weirdly haven't been in the mood for writing anything long-form or serious lately ;o;

For the past 2+ months I've been living much more carefree and not spending much time on my productive hobbies or thinking too hard about anything I suppose haha. My work-life balance is much improved and I'm recovered from burnout! Having much more free time felt glorious and I fully enjoyed using it to play more games, make memories with friends, and spend my time in a more relaxed way that's not always motivated by deadlines. It's been a nice summer!

However I do hope I get bitten by the blogging bug sometime - I also enjoy having posts to look back on... So many thoughts and feelings I wish I could have the power of revisiting 🥲