Probably mostly an adult

Man, I can't believe this long, long, emotional week is over. ;A; It's been so busy—I worked past 8:30 PM on three days because I'm handling a big project as main editor for the first time. I've been drained in several ways, lacking sleep, stressed out, and I guess it totally showed.... Three times I was asked in the past two weeks if I was sick, because I look like such a tired mess OTL

The hardest day was Friday though.
I had to finally tell my boss that I'm going to quit the part time accounting job I've been working at for almost 5 years. ;;;;

Although it went well and my boss is happy for me—bless her heart—it took a lot struggling not to let the tears fall out of my eyes during that difficult, sentimental, hopeful, sad conversation. Fuck. I've been crying a lot haha ^^;;; It's not simply a workplace. I've got emotional attachments to the people, my friends, the environment, the memories..... The past 5 years have been so pivotal in my growth as a person; the current me that I know has always attended this accounting job and has always been surrounded by these people. I don't know how to accept this much change yet. ;_; When I started working there, I was the company's first intern and my dad brought me in because my parents wanted me to try working instead of sitting at home. I was merely an 18 year old child that graduated high school with no direction in life, no responsibilities, no social skills, no belief that I could have any talent that mattered, no desire to ever grow up or change.

My last week at this job will be the week of my birthday—I'm going to turn 23.
And I'm going to start working full time at my currently part time video production job. ;^; There'll be a lot of good opportunities. I even go on business trips! Now I'm getting big projects to edit too! Considering how many film majors like me are freelancing or struggling to earn steady income, I'm pretty damn lucky. I should probably treat my professor who referred me to this job to a meal. xD He gave me such an incredible kickstart to what seems like it will become a career for me in video production. Weird. Now I don't even have a knee-jerk reaction to thinking that I'm probably mostly an adult with an actual meaningful future. Weeeiiird.