Hey.
OTL I'm sorry. I really only came to whine. Normally, I'd bring my petty whining to twitter but everyone on my TL seems really happy so I don't wanna cloud it with my stupid negativity. Instead, I'm staining my blog. ;v;)/ Because I can, because this is my territory herp derp. Just kind of needed an outlet for a bit.

At work at the moment. Haven't had an appetite for the past 3 weeks, but it's never been as extreme as today. In fact, I feel kind of sick which is really not helping my emo bitch mood that's been hanging around lately. Headache, nausea, and I just really don't want to eat at all. But at the same time, I'm scared that if I don't eat, I'll faint later. Which.. isn't an impossibility considering it's me. (Every school day of mine is shrouded with anxiety over two fears: 1] that people will hate me, and 2] that I might almost pass out in Step Training again, like that one time.) And if that happens while I'm driving home, lol I'm fucked.
I'm wondering if I should ask to go home a bit earlier today instead of working my usual 8 hours, because I'm not feeling well, but at the same time I feel like it's my duty to stick it out and make a little bit more money for my family since my dad doesn't have a job right now. There's so much pressure from everywhere that's just caving in on me and I don't know what to do.