Scene 2016: Take 1

I read somewhere about the lead actress of a drama whose part was the most strenuous as she was in most scenes of the show. She'd relieve the tension from all the stress and exhaustion by crying her eyes out in her trailer, and then would go out and nail her scenes.

Now I want to think that I'm like her. I'm just crying so that I can shed all of my stress, sadness, anger, loneliness, irritation, contempt, and mental and physical exhaustion. So that I can now feel burden-free and go forward doing my best!

It's a new year. A new scene to nail.

When I get back from my Hong Kong/Taiwan trip, I've got lots to do--including my yearly resolutions review.

rad

Today I thought I'd try to color my roots since the last dye job left them pretty dark.

HONESTLY IT JUST LOOKS THE SAME/NOT NOTICEABLE .......... but in this specific angle in my bathroom my hair looks really red and I like it LOL. That's all, thx.

FINALLY.. Let's Catch Up!

I feel like blogging today~ ;u; I still haven't continued the Lovelyz MV with subs for fear of crying again HAHAHAHAHAHA but I'm feeling much better now! Something great happened already in the past hour since I wrote that post.

My laptop—which I only bought a year ago—decided to die after I brought it back from my Disneyland trip 2 weeks ago. I was pretty angry and offended (COME ON TECHNOLOGY WTF YOU DOING????) but I had hope that my files could be recovered at the very least. My dad who works in tech support was unable to do anything and ended up taking it to a computer repair shop. This is where everything goes to even more shit. The repair guy says there's apparently no data to be found on my harddrive. Ok fine. I made it clear that I wanted the laptop back if that were the case, and that they shouldn't reformat my laptop or reinstall Windows, which would wipe out all my files for sure. AND THEN my dad calls me while I'm at work.. to tell me the repair shop called.. and said, bad news...... that their software automatically reinstalls Windows if the repair fails......
Needless to say I was pissed as hell?! I had to put down my work and run to the bathroom for some angry sobbing.

Anyway, the rest of the story goes:
Repair shop ended up failing to reinstall Windows. (wao lol)
My dad refused to pay them. (thank god I would've been even more pissed)
My coworker was able to restore my files!!!!!!!!!!
My coworker is a miracle maker.

As I type, I'm copying all my resurrected files over! ^^ Waaaaa this is my one stroke of actual good luck this week!

So now I'll jump back in time to my "Let's Catch Up!" photo post that I had started a few weeks ago and will now be able to continue. :>

~timewarp~
~tacky animation effects~
~i saw what u had for dinner~
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What the, I haven't been on my blog in well over a month..?! LOL.
If only there were some extra hours in the day, I would certainly dedicate them to blogging. There's so much I always want to post, but then I'm either busy or too exhausted, and I reach this point where I don't even know where to start...........
A month is a long ass time....

This is basically a selfie timeline lol.

I guess for starters! On November 1st, I went on my very first business trip!!!!! :DDD It was to San Diego! I had my own huge hotel room in the Grand Hyatt! I got to eat nice meals all paid for by the company!
In exchange, there was some stress and I was tired as hell, which I suppose is to be expected. We were creating videos for the event that happened (which I endearingly call CEO-con, or Annual CEO Speed Dating Event) so I was helping with handling audio during interviews and also edited little clips for the social media team to post.

The entire trip was spent with middle-aged folks who are experienced in the creative content production industry, so obviously I was awkward, couldn't fit in, and wasn't as competent. But honestly, it wasn't as bad as it could have been ^^ or would have been if it were me from years ago. Although I spent the trip without much confidence, now I'm believing in myself a bit more. ;^; I received some really kind words!! My colleagues said I did good work and that I'm smarter than the well-paid clients we worked for! And two people said that I'm very wise beyond my years.... ;____; I'm so flattered heee.

My hotel room, mug shot, yum but expensive sushi HEHEHEHE

Obligatory selfies because paid video editing in a seaside hotel room.

Funniest thing happened on the way back though. I booked a late returning flight so that I'd be able to hang out with Chiisana who goes to school an hour from San Diego. Before she took me to the airport, we were able to stop by New Port Beach, and that was incredibly pleasant and fun albeit short ;u;

So my flight's booked for 9:20 PM. Due to it being a smaller, non-isolated airport, there's a curfew at 10 PM to prevent noise complaints. .....
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You'd think they'd learn by now not to offer flights so close to their curfew.
The flight got CANCELLED because we couldn't take off in time LMAO. Our pilots were on an incoming flight that got delayed so much that they couldn't make it onto our plane before 10.
So I had to take the next day off from work, and generous goddess Chiisana came to pick me up, let me sleep over, and took me to the airport again the next day ;u; ... There were tons of stressful factors at the time but in hindsight, it turned out well!



Two Halloweens ago, friends and I walked around a mall giving out candy as a "reverse trick-or-treat," which unfortunately couldn't happen again. xD But I took charge of giving out candy at my house for the first time, which was cool! (My parents can't be bothered and I was too shy, so we usually avoid the holiday altogether.)

I couldn't think of an appropriate costume to wear to work so I ended up just wearing a tie and my dad's blazer and shoes, and called myself a businessman looooool.



I also dyed my hair again! My roots grew out a ton since June. Ended up going with Garnier Nutrisse Color Foam: 3UR Deep Ultra Intense Red for Dark Hair, which surprised me as a non-Asian brand bubble/foam dye.

(Not a good comparison because I didn't know lighting would change that great a deal from 2 PM to 4 PM lol)

Easy to use, very little run (or scent) after the initial rinse, didn't damage my hair, overall pretty good experience and I'd use this dye again! Only it didn't color my roots all that well, which could have been my fault. It's k.



Two weeks ago was my company-paid trip to Disneyland!! (This is the accounting job; not the video production one.) That was the greatest weekend ever, man. I mean since I'm an only child who lives in a very quiet and sometimes lonely house, I was pretty excited about the fact that a bunch of coworker friends and I rented a house from Airbnb to live in together ^___^ It was such a nice house too!!! I've always wanted to live in a house with stairs! I've always wanted to have a bunk bed and try sleeping on the top bunk! The carpet was so comfy I even fell asleep on it! And how nice was it to get to stay up playing board games with friends! And have late night pillow talks ;w;! I FEEL LIKE I'VE FULFILLED SO MANY CHILDHOOD DESIRES.
My body felt like death afterwards, but Disneyland was a blast! The upgraded Hyperspace Mountain IS SO FUCKING FUN. The weather was beautiful! Take me back. Take me now.

Here's me at my 'regular spot' on the stairs because I'm like 5.

I actually don't have any obligatory selfies from this trip. My only regret is that I wish I took pictures while at Disneyland. D: But on the road trip returning home, my coworker did take a bunch of dumb pictures on my camera LMAO.

 I got a push-pop at the gas station and loved it.

For You

This could be the first of possibly many posts about this song because it pretty much owns my soul right now.



Lovelyz released their new For You (그대에게) MV this morning and I'd been watching it over and over without subtitles. It's so perfect from the music, to their vocals and belting(!), to the styling, to the MV direction, to the meaningful story, to the cinematography. How could anything get lovelier than this? And I just love that the story is that they're giving warmth and hope to a friend beset by wintery grey loneliness, through jars of beautiful remembrances. And these girls are so sweet, so talented, so hardworking, so strong despite obstacles, that they deserve the recognition that I'm sure they'll earn through such a wonderful release. ;u;

So I finally watched the MV with English subtitles. After the first two lines, I had to pause the MV because I suddenly got emotional. I ended up crying and I haven't even watched the rest of it yet ;_; ...

The first two lines go:
"Did you have a long/tiring day? I see a bit of sadness."

Yeah. These days I've only been having those. ..When did you notice, Lovelyz..? ;________; How could you make me cry just with two sentences? Then again I shouldn't be surprised because I've been crying a lot in the past couple weeks. Mostly from stress, I think. Sometimes I don't know why.

I had started a big "let's catch up!" post for this busy month, then had no time or energy to finish it, and now my laptop died so....... I'll probably still put it up later.. someday......

This past weekend was my company-paid trip to Disneyland! It was a lot of fun, but I guess my laptop couldn't handle the 7 hour drive home because it would not boot up when I got back.. At this point I'm just praying all my files can be recovered. :/

What a gloomy day. All this cold rainy stress and loneliness in contrast to sunny carefree times in LA with friends by my side day and night. I might be in yet another slump. It's hard to even find motivation to get out of bed.

5 Minute Morning Challenges ??

Last week at my video production job, we had our first creative meeting! Basically show-and-tell LOL.. One coworker shared an article he read recently about how changing up your morning routine can stimulate creativity and give you more drive throughout the day. ;u;
I was pretty much inspired, since I've been thinking to install some positive changes. I've been unmotivated. I'm tired all the time. I don't wanna do anything. Especially, I can't and don't want to get out of bed. Even with work everyday, I wake up much later than I intend to every morning. And with just work 5 days a week, life does become routinely and soul-sucking. :c

So!!!! I'm gonna try something I thought of today: 5 Minute Morning Challenges.

I'm going to come up with 31 short challenges, throw them into a random order generator, force myself up every morning not knowing what the challenge of the day is, and fulfill it before going to work.

So far, here are some things I've thought of.. They're easy, but they're challenges to me because I never exercise and can't cook, etc etc HAHAHA.

• Jumping jacks and maybe other stuff
• Ab exercises (this blogilates video?)
• Butt exercises??
• Some cardio dance video
• Cycling machine
• Practice a k-pop dance
• Cook an egg for breakfast
• Learn a new Korean word and tell someone about it
• Learn a new Japanese word and tell someone about it
• Take a walk to the basketball court and back
• Take a jog? to the basketball court and back
• Practice playing keyboard
• Learn the chorus or verse of a k-pop song I've never sung before
• Do something extra to my appearance

Please let me know if you might have any suggestions~ And feel free to join me? :>

We'll see how this goes!

Renewal

"Now I'm feeling super hyped because I intend to have a productive winter break! I'll be increasing my work hours, but I'll try to find the time nevertheless. There's a lot I want to do! And I'm going to try chasing after some opportunities! I'm gonna have some fun while at it. I'll do my best. I want to become a more impressive version of myself. I can do it. :)"

Uh, who hacked my account because I don't recognize this person LOL.....

Y'know, at the end of the day, I'm pretty glad that I blog, and get to chronicle my ups and downs and beliefs and griefs. ^^;; What stronger motivational voice than your own?
Last night I ended up staying up late rereading my blog posts.. through my new years resolution review.. til the semester of Fall 2014. It's interesting when you feel like you're reading the words of a completely different person.
Man, one year ago, I was on top of the world. I wasn't as learned as now, nor was I even as able to socialize as much as now, but because I felt confident in myself and my potential, I was happy. D: Because I was trying new things and surprisingly liked it, I wanted to try more new things.
What happened in my last semester of college that stomped on my confidence and courage..? ;;; How did I gradually become more and more unmotivated, and started finding less and less meaning in everything... :c sigh
I kind of want to find that person again. That kind of thought itself is a good sign!!

;u; Today I already feel like I'm bouncing back a bit, from the moment I woke up and my first thought wasn't, "Fuck I hate everything why do I have to get out of bed when there's no point."

And a few days ago! I started practicing keyboard again despite not having touched it in probably 6 years. ;A; I'm shocked~
Then yesterday! I cleaned up and finally put away all the shit I failed to unpack from .. AX in July.. and my Alaska cruise trip in May.....

Now today! I spent all evening working on this year's AX vlog which I haven't touched since a few days after AX. :'D Slowly kind of picking stuff up again. Little steps, but I think it's okay to be proud of them.

Power / Coco

A part of me had dreaded writing this post for certain reasons, despite the vehemently small voice that urges me through every crack in my subconscience haha.

Finally got the push today as I received this email. ;u;
Two days a week, I work at a video production start-up that does media for mostly corporate companies. In July, we headed over to Google HQ for a video shoot for a lovely organization that helps girls learn about science, math, and tech. Although I didn't do anything related to producing or camerawork, I did work the live audio recording, and then I assisted with the video edit, and did all the audio mixing and color correction. My first time having such a big hand in a project for the company ;u;! You can watch the video here if you're curious.

  

Hearing these kinds of things makes me really happy! I'm glad to be helpful.

I had a moment of realization last month that I can actually affect others' lives and move them by making videos. It's a fascinating thing—the power of a camera, an editing program, and a mouse—turned into the form of media that speaks most volumes.


During the shoot, one of the girls we interviewed really stood out to me. She was the youngest—a bright-eyed one, 12 years old, but spoke with more thought and articulation than me tenfold. A mature, but optimistic, obviously passionate young girl! I remember when we finished her interview, I thought to myself, "Man, so kids these days can be smart. Did I just meet a child prodigy? This girl's gonna do big things one day," and wished her good luck with her pursuits while I helped her take off the microphone.

Flash forward to last month, when I stupidly.. agh, so stupidly decided to check my work email on my iPad while I was in bed, before falling asleep.
And I found out she passed away in a car accident...... ;;;;;;;;;;;;; Needless to say, it was hard to fall asleep that night... And now I will never check my email before bed again.

When I went into work, they put me on the assignment of making a video for her family. Or well they asked me to put together all of the footage we had of her (since we really only used a nibble of it for the video) but I was more than willing to edit together a nice memorial video for her.. ;; I think she deserved at least that much. She was so charming, so smart, so passionate, so spirited. I don't know how she made such a lasting impression on me when I only met her once, but I had such big hopes for her already. Actually, I stayed really late that day to make a nice video to send her off with. A lot of deliberate editing. All of her smiling and laughing shots because they need to know how happy and bright she was. Video ended with a slow motion shot of her smiling warmly and nodding, because I think her loved ones would want to hear her say, "It's okay."

I don't know how her family reacted to the video, but the words of my coworkers and our friends from the organization (through whom we passed the video) really touched me—because of how I was able to touch them. ;; It was sad, but also felt a little.. miraculous? That I can do something that might help or comfort other people? Make something that invokes emotions?

Art is really such a powerful thing. ^^ I guess that's how I might find motivation to work on gifts for friends when I'm otherwise mostly unmotivated.

Honestly, I've had the thought before that my film classmates might look down on me because most of what I've been doing professionally so far have involved "simple" interviews, and I'm not pursuing fancy Hollywood-bound things and complex cinematography like most of them are. But today I feel like I'm not losing in any way. Interviews are personal; through them, people can share their stories and passions, and connect and strike a chord with the viewer. Right?

After that email today, I wounded up on the organization's website and came across their News page which talked about how the recent mentees went up to Google in SF (not HQ; it was a prior occasion) and one girl even wrote an essay on her exciting experience. I clicked on it out of curiosity. Fuck. It was Coco.... Just like what she said in her interview, she wrote that she dreams of working at Google someday. Emotions stirred again.
I hardly knew you but I miss you. ;n; Rest in peace, Coco.

A New Journey

【小さな•Kazou•Eva】Phoenix Ash - A New Journey「HBD Fome!」

Vocals:
　- Chiisana (Blossana)
　　http://www.youtube.com/ChiisanaChanx3
　- Kazou (Butterkaz)
　　http://www.youtube.com/soundmutation
　- Eva (Bubbleva)
　　http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva

Script: Kazou
Mix: Eva
Harmony Guide: Chiisana
Video: Eva


YAAYYY!! A COMPLETED PROJECT! Chiisana, Kazou, and I surprised Fome for his birthday by doing a cover of one of Fome's band's songs. ^^ Actually it's the first song he wrote for Phoenix Ash. It's also appropriate given that he's got exciting changes ahead, but that will probably be announced in due time. Congratulations and happy birthday to Fome!!!

Hope you enjoy what we made ;v; All three of us struggled singing this song since it's nothing like what we're used to doing LOL.... Admittedly I rushed the mix so sorry about that part.. and also for my still developing sense of aesthetic.. but I did really work very hard on this video!! orz I'm no videographer, but I have been wanting to make an MV ever since my Tonight video, so I'm glad I got to do that for this heh. Took a lot of work but it was fun.

Also look out for the Easter eggs in the video hehe. A lot of the footage was shot on the day that Fome took pictures of Kazou modeling for the band's new t-shirts. So beyond the blatant shots of them and their feet, if you look carefully, you might see Fome and Kazou in the corner walking ahead of me.. Just look for the brown messenger bag :'D

(based on our representative colors)
[12:50:40 PM] Kazou-kun: we look like the powerpuff girls
[12:51:28 PM] Eva: THE FOAMYPUFF GIRLS
[12:52:34 PM] Kazou-kun: Blossana, Bubbleva, and Butterkaz
[12:52:42 PM] Eva: YOOOOOOOOOO
[12:52:45 PM] Eva: it's official

[12:58:21 PM] Eva: adsfjlkdslfkjdslkfjdsfksad
[12:58:25 PM] Eva: AND FOME IS PROFESSOR
[1:00:24 PM] Eva: this is perfect
[1:00:30 PM] Eva: old man mad scientist fome
[1:00:40 PM] Eva: creates friends in his laboratory
[1:00:42 PM] Eva: to sing him songs
[1:00:55 PM] Eva: that's the plotline

[1:41:45 PM] Kazou-kun: Can I invite Siri
[1:41:57 PM] Eva: Bunny is not allowed to play
[1:42:01 PM] Kazou-kun: PLEASE
[1:42:06 PM] Eva: we killed Bunny remember

Heart Pangs

Hurhur, tried out heart bangs~ Such a silly but cute trend #하트앞머리

A photo posted by Eva (@waterpixieva) on Sep 25, 2015 at 1:10pm PDT

It's been mostly better lately but busy ;u; Today was the first time in a while having the entire day to myself so I didn't get up til 5 PM eheeehh~ So nice catching my breath, just relaxing in bed all evening watching Red Velvet and Lovelyz on variety shows.. I think I do get extra stressed out because I've been missing this 'me' time lately to be spent with no worries or responsibilities. But also some things are just objectively stressful and dreadful tbh.

I almost had a chance to feel sad about summer officially ending (and friends leaving again..), but then I got food poisoning again earlier this week so that was  o<-<

Why  o<-<

And then digestive issues for the rest of the week  o<-<

babybird

Yooo it's been busy.

I did have a fun weekend though! I surprisingly had energy on Friday and Saturday before I went back to being my lethargic self xDD But not as bad as before~

On Saturday, I saw the Love Live! movie at its premiere in San Francisco, which was fun. It was a good movie, full of laughs and feels. o^o They gave a free picture board and SR card (for the game) to each person; so nice~ Afterwards, friends and I had afternoon tea and took purikura!

Also more selfie because for whatever reason my appearance was kind of okay on Saturday. Normally I look 2000% messier and more zombielike, I promise LOL. My skin and hair suddenly decided to cooperate after being ugly for so long!!! And I even liked the make-up I bothered to put on eheee. That was a nice day :'D

Also Kotori hair because it was Kotori's birthday. (Ugh I love all of the LL members so much more now after seeing season 2 and the movie. Proceeds to devote more of my life to this quicksand of a franchise.)

Dangerzone

Complex

[I started writing this post about 2 weeks ago—actually scribbled on my iPad in the back seat of a car during an emotional moment—and I just kind of left it.. Clearing out my drafts I guess to get it off my chest. But it's kind of hard once the moment has already passed ^^;;]

M.I.A

One of those phases when even getting out of bed is an achievement. 8DDDDDD;;
And yesterday was a failure.

Puss in . . fins

Ehhhh really haven't been recording much lately. Just one thing I started doing lines for and then it tired me out because .. what is trying to sound powerful ... or good..... just how.......
But I'm trying to get back into spontaneous short recordings 'cause those are the most fun and noncommittal *^* lolololol also trying to improve at one shots.

Because I was drowning in Mermaid Melody nostalgia →

'Koi wa Nandarou' crap fun one shot (beware peaking!)

Because this song has been stuck in my head since Jimin's performance at KCON →

'Puss (by Jimin & Iron)' one shot (beware profanity and mistakes!)

Unbelievable.... I used to hate Jimin's rapping because I thought it was high, annoying, squeaky, and try-hard but now here I am a Jimin fan, learning her song, and attempting to emulate her rap style. orz

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The lack of motivation is so real..........

So much I told myself I would blog..... and it all rotted away in my head or my hard drive :'D
That AX vlog that I edited 70% of within a few days after AX...... still at 70% lol
The past few days I've been having digestive problems :c Food poisoning and upchucking are the worst. Also I feel like my anemia has been acting up too. SO IN CONCLUSION.......... I DON'T WANT TO MOVE......... AND I JUST WANT TO SLEEP...... AND I AM PERPETUALLY TIRED...... AND I DON'T WANNA DO ANYTHING. peace~

Fresh Alum

I work on First Street.
It's been a few months, but it's not unfamiliar.
For four years, I went to school on Fourth Street.
And my parking garage is on Third.
Today's walk felt somehow different.
Were all these people always here?
Everywhere, backpacks and bright eyes,
Sprawling coffee shops and school pride.
My backpack now carries no books,
And my back only financial pressure.
I do carry a lunch pail though,
For the one break within the long day.
And it's a strange feeling.
Because I had a backpack too for 17 years.
But they started school without me.
Fucking identity crisis.



#notquitepoetrybut

KCON LA 2015!

I just went to my first KCON! And now I wonder why I've never gone to KCON before because holy shit, it is such an unforgettable experience. I went with Chiisana and our friend Dres, and the funny thing is that Chiisa and I are known for having very bad luck—especially together. The drive from Norcal to LA is supposed to take 6-7 hours, but guess who had to endure a 10 hour drive through traffic hell with a lovely view of mountain wildfires.... ;x;
And somehow, KCON itself went .. beyond smoothly for us. In fact, it went super well!

So here's my KCON experience complete with shaky pictures and scream-ridden fancams ^^

Ketchup

It's been a crazy month to say the least xD!

July started off with my annual Anime Expo LA trip which is like a prolonged sleepover with some of my favorite people and prime cosplay rush.

Also went camping and whitewater rafting with coworkers, went to a small anime con in SF, some hanging out with old friends, new friends. Working 2 part time jobs.

And last weekend was KCON, so another trip to LA. ;D I just got home 3 hours ago and now it's 2 AM LOL.

I have to say that this summer has really pulled me out of my comfort zone and is transforming me into a more confident and shameless person. IT'S KIND OF GREAT. I'm obnoxious.

Because of AX, I'm less afraid to talk to strangers and be looked at. Because of camping/rafting, I'm less afraid to face my fears and be assertive. Because of my athletic high school friends and coworkers, I'm trying to be more active and learned I can do more than I think. Because of the way I interact with my new coworkers, I feel like I can actually make jokes when I speak. Because I acted as talent for a small video shoot for work, I'm less afraid of being on camera. Because of KCON, for the very first time.... I didn't mind that I was taller than almost everyone else around. I embraced it, embraced dressing with some fashion, embraced having a popping lip color, embraced standing out. During the KCON concerts, I wasn't afraid of being embarrassingly loud while showing my support for the performers. I didn't care too much about what others might think. So that's kinda cool. Yay! I really ought to sleep :D;;

half baked mud pie

It only gets worse

Guess who yolo decided yesterday that she's going to build the guitar along with her Chuchu costume even though she's never done a big prop like this before—

That's right. Batman did.

It has come

Cosplay Month

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Sherlock

:'D So uh. I got hired to the video production part time job that my professor referred me to! So this might possibly (MAAAAAAYBE) be my last mixing project for a bit.. since for the rest of this month, I'm gonna have 2 part time jobs, a film shoot spanning across 2 full weekends, and cosplay to make for AX.......... HEHEHEHEHHHHHHHH.......

It was Ashley's birthday a few days ago! She's someone we've known for a long time and collaborated with back in our k-pop covering heydays, so Gemini mix team (sans Chiisana who's got finals) stepped in to do our thang! Ryan tuned and mastered, Mimi timed and pre-leveled, and I did EQ/effects/panning/final volume leveling. :>

Unfortunately, it was super rushed for everyone on the crew because we really wanted to make it on time for Ashley's bday, but I'd say it's a pretty bomb job considering the crazy circumstances. All the artists and the animator went through a lot too ;v;

These awesome vocalists sang the Japanese version of SHINee's Sherlock, so enjoy~
THE HARMONIES ARE INSANE.


【11人合唱】HBD ASHLEY 「SHERLOCK」

☆*:.｡. Vocalists .｡.:*☆
☆Arianna （https://www.youtube.com/user/AcchanCh...） 
★Chad （https://www.youtube.com/user/WillRubert）
☆Claire （https://www.youtube.com/user/ucanshine89）
☆Celia （https://www.youtube.com/user/CeliaTeh...）
☆Emiko （https://www.youtube.com/user/bambiie1994）
☆Kumo （https://www.youtube.com/user/Cloudoll...）
☆Line （https://www.youtube.com/user/Everlast...）
☆May （https://www.youtube.com/user/xiahdreams）
★Razzy （https://www.youtube.com/user/itsRazzy...）
★Ryan （https://www.youtube.com/user/RyanEatPho）
★Vulkain （https://www.youtube.com/user/pyrovulcain）

☆*:.｡. Audio .｡.:*☆
★彡Ryan
☆彡Mimi （https://www.youtube.com/user/mimimois...）
☆彡Eva （https://www.youtube.com/user/waterpix...）

☆*:.｡. Video .｡.:*☆
☆彡Kumo

☆*:.｡. Visuals .｡.:*☆
☆彡Angelica （https://twitter.com/angelicaJ29）
★彡Jay （http://jaysonrevenge.deviantart.com）

[Review] Mise en scène / Hello! Bubble Foam Hair Dye (Raspberry Red)

I'm a noob both in terms of hair products and reviews, but HI! Here was my experience with the Hello! Bubble "foam color" hair dye in 7R Raspberry Red~

I totally wasn't inspired to buy this product because of any k-pop song. Nope.

Six weeks ago, I dyed my hair for the first time! (And nearly immediate second time for better effect.) Was hoping for a dark red/auburn, but 22-year-old virgin hair was like, "Nope I give you reddish brown that looks black unless you're in direct light."

So Hello! Bubble joins the scene as I was hoping to go more red now that my hair is lighter than before. Results slightly differed from what I expected, but overall my experience with the product was good!

Initially I thought that it didn't turn out the way they advertised.. but looking at the below picture closer, they didn't actually advertise a huge difference, so I shouldn't have expected much LOL.
It just confuses me that my hair keeps getting lighter into golden reddish brown, rather than a deep reddish brown?

The product was straight-forward and easy to use. Mix two packets, shake the bottle, pump the foam, apply all over hair, wait. Really not as messy as I expected! (I make big messes.) The foam was easy to handle—no dripping!—but holy fuck I was shocked by how purple it is.

I was pleased that it wasn't nearly as smelly as the last dye I used. ^^ Also washes off your skin and everywhere with no problem.

One small con though, which is that I do feel that my hair has gotten slightly more coarse, having originally been very soft due to its thin fineness. The difference is subtle though and I wouldn't say it dried out or damaged my hair. :>

Overall I liked this product, which was pretty effective for something I don't really have complaints about. But if you want saturation, I wouldn't substitute this for bleaching. Affordable, very little downsides, would use again!!
Bless Girl's Day.

Light makes such a big difference tho wtf I don't even understaaaand (Avengers Go-Gurt makes me very happy)

If You Can Dream

My friends are so maso wtf. I really didn't expect to receive Ice Cream Cake, but I expected even LESS that that present was partially to throw me off the trail of ANOTHER epic birthday present?!

So a few months ago, Erin asked me to fill in for her If You Can Dream collab because her Ariel "dropped out last minute." Of course I said yes because I love Erin (she's the sweetest), I'm still obsessed with Disney Princesses (I own the DVD that has the MV for the song), I love the song (attempted a collab of it in 2007), and Ariel is my absolute FAAAAAAVORITE. *^*

Fast forward to Fanime last weekend.
I'm getting milkshakes with Chiisana, Sophie/Kuroko, Fome, Dibur, and Yano. Suddenly Sophie hands me her phone and earbuds, and tells me she has something to show me.

......???
A video starts. Wait. Ryan. Is this the Ryan I know? WHOA, NOW EVEN JEFFREY... AND JAY........ IS THIS ANOTHER GEMINI THING HOLY SHIT?!
Then the intro song ends and the title for If You Can Dream comes up.
My first reaction: "WHAT!!! YOU GUYS SANG THIS SONG WITHOUT ME?!"
.........
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=____=;;;;; They're so sneaky. Suuuuch tricksters. Wow.

Seriously though aaaaa what an epic collab! All of my precious Gemini family, and sweeties Erin and Robby who featured in Gemini's PonPonPon, and the talented members of NYA (NorCal Youtube Alliance) who I hang out with irl?! And the insanely adorable art is by Aaron and Kanso who I adore and got to see last weekend too?! Jackpot. Man, I'm so lucky!!

Everyone sounds so goooood!! Really, not a single weak spot imo. Mix and video are flawfree; I love the unexpected blend in vocals and the touch of the silhouettes. So many of my friends came together for this—I can't believe it. And it's NYA's first completed collab too! I love it to bitssssss *u* I've had it on repeat since last week~ It's such an honor to receive something so lovely ;A;

I'm gonna shamelessly point out that my most repeated part tbh is the part near the end with Chris/Hakuro's solo followed by Jeffrey's because KRISTOFF x SVEN OTP (the! adorable! art! doesn't! help!) and they're both the precious young boy characters of NYA and Gemini respectively who are blossoming into young men before our eyes QuQ;;.... Pets them both.... And AAAAgh they sound so good I squeal. I've never heard Chris belt or falsetto like that before and it sounds wonderful/// and then rings in Jeffrey's heavenly voice that I may or may not have once had a slight voice crush over before...... I'm just gonna go hide in a corner now so please treat yourself to this beautiful piece!

【GemiNYA】 If You Can Dream 「HBD Eva! 」

Vocals (In Order of Appearance)

Mickey Mouse - Ryan https://www.youtube.com/user/RyanEatPho 
Sven - Jeffrey https://www.youtube.com/user/jevacado 
Jiminy Cricket - Jay https://www.youtube.com/user/jaysingyou 

Ariel - Eva https://www.youtube.com/user/waterpix...
Jasmine - Mimi https://www.youtube.com/user/mimimois...
Aladdin - Robby https://www.youtube.com/user/llfyrell 
Pocahontas - Lucy https://www.youtube.com/user/Lyrratic 
Elsa - Yano https://www.youtube.com/user/yanoviP 
Anna - Karu https://www.youtube.com/user/karufuruu 
Olaf - Dibur https://www.youtube.com/user/diburmak... 
Cinderella - Erin https://www.youtube.com/user/RamenBlo... 
Prince Charming - Shades https://www.youtube.com/user/ShadesDa... 
Belle - Chiisa https://www.youtube.com/user/Chiisana... 
Beast - Kazou https://www.youtube.com/user/soundmut... 
John Smith - Chishio https://www.youtube.com/user/ChishioYT 
Kristoff - Hakuro https://www.youtube.com/user/ItsHakuro 
Prince Eric - Fome https://www.youtube.com/user/Fome 

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Illustrations:
Aaron http://aeror404.deviantart.com/
Kanso @kanso_sp

Animation: 
Kuroko https://www.youtube.com/user/backstag...
Diji https://www.youtube.com/user/dijidori

Mix: Mimi, Ryan, Chiisa, Fome

~

Honestly, the sole reason for the delay in making this post was because I didn't have time until today to sit down and combine all the art together into one image.
LET US APPRECIATE THIS ENDLESSLY ADORABLE ART * 7 * !!

TWENTYTWO

OKAY OKAY~ I'm late as always, but I'm too stubborn to let my yearly traditions die—so here is my Birthday Girl shirt mirror selfie for when I turned 22 on May 2nd!

I've seriously been posting this every single year since I turned 15 my freshman year of high school LOL. (Last year's; too embarrassed to link any older ones)

And now I'm a graduate! ;A;
My parents borrowed the cap at the last minute on grad day lol. And Chiisana did my hair and make-up~

Oops I entirely forgot to put on the white dress shirt this time lmao yolo too late oh well

Graduation/Fanime '15

FUCK. SUMMER STARTS /RIGHT NOW/.

Oh my god the past week has been insaaaaane.

It started last Wednesday when I went in to volunteer at the cable TV studio that I interned for this semester (they're also a community media center so after you get the right training, members can volunteer on productions).
I was operating one of the cameras on a TV studio taping........... and I FAINTED. LMAO. IT WAS HORRIFYING. I FELT SO BAD. But I also kind of laugh because of how pathetic I am and how horrible my luck is, and it's just so me to faint in the absolute worst case scenario.
The irony is that the show was about fitness and health LOL. So we've got all these trainers and health gurus talking on camera..... And aside from a weird headache I woke up with, I felt pretty fine? In fact, it all happened in the span of 5 minutes. Around the time the director called for 15 minutes to the end of the segment, I started feeling a bit dizzy and like I wanted to eat something, especially something sweet. (We suspect it was a blood sugar/pressure issue.) By the time the director called 10 minutes, I was like, "AGH OKAY I JUST HAVE TO ENDURE 10 MORE MINUTES THEN I CAN SIT DOWN." But then my vision started going blurry... I was seeing static and colors that weren't there, notably red... Everything started sounding bassy and I couldn't tell what anyone was saying anymore; it was a bit like the sensation of being hopelessly drunk. And then I was down :'D The floor director saw me losing control and caught me, and I faintly remember the people on set freaking out. The best part is that the director was shouting, "WHAT HAPPENED TO CAMERA 2!!" through my headset, so the first thing I did when I regained consciousness seconds later was get up and fix my camera framing LMAO. Still, I feel horrible for interrupting the taping and for worrying people sigh. That wasn't a good day at all.

Then Thursday was the biannual student short film festival at my school! ^^ I won an award a year ago, but this time wasn't able to participate in any of the films shown. Afterwards, I got to have fun hanging out and drinking with schoolmates for the first time! .......And last time as a student..... ;^; (Still yay! I guess better late than never!)

On Friday, I graduated from university. Q_______Q
Since I don't care much for festivities and conventions, I didn't buy a cap and gown because it's fucking expensive. $60 for some fabric I'm only going to wear for 4 hours and then never again, to take some low quality pictures for people I don't have much reason to be grateful to, to pretend to celebrate something I never got to feel like was a great or honored achievement anyway. Graduation wasn't a good day. Actually, I was pretty depressed and angry. Meh.

As it was our department-only convocation, every graduate had the chance to make a speech; and most of them went on long sentimental rambles that likely exceeded their 30 second limits. ..True to my nature—having been the only valedictorian in high school among 7 that did not give a speech—I made the shortest and least emotional "speech" out of the ~70 students that showed up LOL....

In the end, my parents borrowed at the last minute the gown of a family friend, that I slipped on afterwards to take some pictures haha.

On the bright side, Chiisana (who came back for the weekend) did my hair and make-up!

blessu stylist chiisana saves my life

glorious ugly university of perpetual construction work

On Saturday, I went to Fanime! Got to meet up with and hang out with frieenddsss~ We were at a milkshake place when they suddenly sprung THIS FREAKING VIDEO ("If You Can Dream" by GemiNYA) on me and I looooooost my shit LOL. That will get its own post though! God, I have a lot of posts to make still.

That night was the BACK-ON concert, which was awesome! They're the rare j-rock band that I actually really like whose music I've bought.. Tbh Chiisana and I weren't planning on getting Fanime badges until we found out BACK-ON was the musical guest xDD But yeah, they were great! Unfortunately I don't know how to appreciate instrumentalists but they seemed solid, and the vocalists had a crazy amount of endurance and energy. My favorite songs by them are: Nibun no Ichi and Departure, which were a ton of fun live!

We also went to Fanime on Sunday, but without badges.
I cosplayed UH.... my makeshift "maid version" of Kido Tsubomi from Kagerou Project (anime Mekakucity Actors) which basically was an excuse to wear pants and sneakers under a maid dress.

PC: Chiisana

With Myst, who bravely sang a solo during the Maid Cafe performances! It was great because we went over to congratulate Myst on the performance and took a pic together, and then people started showing up that wanted to take pictures with the both of us HAHA.

That night, I went over to sleep over at Myst's house where Kanso/Sean was staying for the weekend.

I've made countless posts on here and tumblr in which I'm bullying Kanso because he cosplays Kano Shuuya who Kido kind of.. violently abuses because he's a mischievous idiot. AND FINALLY Kanso gets his revenge this year as he was Policeman Rin and I a weeaboo civilian :c

AX 2013

This is a better picture to show all the abuse lol, but I wanted to post this one because we took it literally minutes after the very first time we met! When we bumped into each other at the Artist Alley at AX! And now we're real friends and stuff and that's cooool ;A; except for, y'know, when he arrests me.

Fanime 2015

Then Monday, we briefly went back to the con to meet up with people and I spent the day hanging out with friends and got some really good ramen and dessert ;u;

Tuesday, I tried some "deep fried pho" (surprisingly yummy~) and went to the mall with some of the schoolmates I drank with after the film fest. ^^ Yaaay friends!!!! Better late than never yay!! Afterwards, I joined the Valkyrie Kiss (Dibur's band) members, Yano, and Fome for VK's bassist Tik's birthday.

AND TODAY. I had my first real job interview. OHMYGAH. See, I've only ever had one interview before and it was the internship one. One of my coolest professors, who's for some reason super generous to me, referred me to a part time position for a creative content company. IT WAS SO NERVE-WRACKING. I'm naturally awkward, but I guess I have no regrets since I did my best! Q^Q YAY I FEEL LIKE SO MUCH IS OFF MY SHOULDERS NOW. I feel reneeewwweeddddd.

YAY I'M GLAD IT'S OVER AND I DID IT.

Finally I can rest a little. Maybe. Idk. I have a lot to catch up on.