I don't know what to do with these thoughts so I'm just gonna write them here. ;o;

Firstly I want to apologize if by chance, anybody who lives outside of the US saw some of my previous posts about our current events and felt that I was shaming you for not doing enough or not paying enough attention. I know everyone has their own issues and priorities and I really don't think that "if you're not with us then you're against us" applies to the context of those not involved (though it is true for those who have power and choose not to use it)—and I realized that the tone of my posts may have sounded like that, so I'm sorry if that needlessly pressured you. TT

Admittedly some of the harshness was intentional because I was frustrated at the people around me in the US who straight up wanted to turn a blind eye and didn't understand the issues at large that permeate and harm all of our local communities.. And to be frank, I'm still frustrated that there is a revolution happening and so many people aren't doing anything/aren't able to do anything.....including myself. 😣 It was easier to have a fighting spirit before when I could keep saying that "every little bit helps"—which still does hold true and I know there's been a difference made but the reality is that it's not enough. We've definitely been seeing some good-willed, progressive change here and lots of people are listening and working on policies that protect people from those that abuse their power—but holy fuck it's scary how much it's not enough. It's SO SCARY that many authoritative people hear those voices and choose not to care, choose to blatantly continue to discriminate and oppress and be genocidal.

And why is there even still an argument about masks and the validity of a pandemic that's killed so many people????? Maybe sure, question it for the first week, but the idiocy is STILL ongoing and so many officials have just given up and/or believe that the economy is more important than human lives. God I feel fortunate to live in CA where masks are mandated and they recently paused reopening in response to cases rising, but whenever I look anywhere else........ WHAT IS HAPPENING..................... WHAT THE HELLLLL

WHAT ON THIS BLOODY EARTH CAN I DO ABOUT ALL OF THIS?? It makes me feel so helpless. We should continue to petition and email but I wish those got more mileage. I've heard of a few instances where a successful petition was referenced in helping bring about a result so yeah we should still keep signing them for the sake of those few, but we're also seeing that they're not effective collateral against everyone. Donating has been important and it's been great to see all of the success there—and now we're hitting a point where I want to be more proactive about where I'm continuing to donate because so many orgs have already been so widely supported, yay! However it'll take time for them to process all that money and put it to use; it's absolutely a good long-term investment but I'm getting impatient because bullshit is still happening every day.

It's becoming clear now that the protests are the biggest bringers of change. I'm really proud that people have been going out there consistently, even if the news no longer shows them. And I'm freaking frustrated that I can't join them and do more.

I've been thinking about how I can more directly contribute to the movement from afar, what my "lane" can be in my circumstances.... For now the answer I've come up with is that I'm determined to distribute my income as much as is reasonable. My job takes up a lot of my time (oh things have been so crazy lol) so I've started to think of it as, I'll keep working hard to make money that I can donate to people that need it more/can make a bigger difference than me. Idk how to explain that thought process without coming off as braggy—not that it's much to boast about since I'm so far removed from the frontlines—but that's why I'm trying to look into fundraisers that directly help the people on the streets or who are organizing demonstrations. I'd greatly appreciate any other leads because they've actually not been very easy to find (plus a lot of outdated posts) and I'm sure there's a lot of local orgs with a small online presence but could use help. ;;

That said, I'mma link some of the ones I've found recently in case anyone else is in the same boat and has money they can afford to redistribute. ;o;

oh god

Ello! Wowie has it been a crazy time LOL. The past handful of weeks has been a ton of learning, paying a lot more attention to current events, petitioning, emailing, donating, trying to share resources, having tough conversations with some people around me..... Admittedly I've been privileged enough in my life to not have to "care about politics" but now seeing that basic human rights are a debate of policy—and keep becoming increasingly and dangerously more so under the current US administration—it's really lit a fire under me to try to do what I can. :/

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Just wanted to make a quick post to ease back into updates. It's kind of becoming my Thing to quickly learn raps that interest me (okay mostly Soyeon raps) and record a live cover on it on my phone with distracting Snow filters ahahaha. It's really fun since I enjoy challenging myself with raps and it's a nice, casual, quick way for me to share my vocal ventures without having to mix anything or wait for a collab to be completed. :'D

The one I just did the other day is Hayate's (cv: fome) rap from the virtual male idol group Kerberos' debut song Greedy. Super impressed by their whole production, especially the quality of the song and the mixing... Just superb, so professional. 👌 If you buy their single, you can also get their Japanese and Korean versions which are also super good—I'm particularly a fan of the Korean version since it flows with the song so well! This is pretty embarrassing though l-lol.....

h..ello scReaAMMs i tried to rap Hayate's part from Kerberos' Greedy....... i do not know who voices him but i stan

Kerberos - Greedy: https://t.co/XbA1xwemiK pic.twitter.com/QVVYiz0EEd

— Eva ❖ CODEX // Gemini (@waterpixieva) June 17, 2020

Wait, what it's already been 2 months since this one? Crap.... Okay so 2 months ago I also did Soyeon's rap from (G)I-DLE'S "Oh My God" which was basically a tongue twister ☠️

i couldnt resist learning another Soyeon rap hhh here's my attempt at her verse in #GIDLE's newest banger Oh My God ! pic.twitter.com/Siro6eJt25

— Eva ❖ CODEX // Gemini (@waterpixieva) April 19, 2020

actions for a cause

It's absolutely infuriating that it's become individuals' responsibility to tell those in power that we need to do simple things such as stop discrimination, listen to science, and to prioritize people's lives and preserve human rights. What the hell???

I wish I could attend protests but I'm not able to—mostly because everyone around me insists that my lung situation makes me more vulnerable to both covid and tear gas (if employed) and it's too high a risk ;;; In the meantime, I just put together a thread of things that can be done right here and now for those who want to take some action! I want to believe that every little bit helps..

Mostly US-based since I'm most familiar with the issues and resources here. I previously wrote a post that's just about BLM. If there are other ways to help that I may not be aware of, please let me know. ;u;

💠 #JusticeForBreonnaTaylor 💠

•  take a few minutes to write an email to these people in your own words?

attorney.general@ag.ky.gov;
greg.fischer@louisvilleky.gov;
Robert.schroeder@louisvilleky.gov

• if you must use a template, here is one: http://www.tinyurl.com/EmailBreonnaTaylor

• https://www.standwithbre.com/ - this site both serves as a petition and will guide you through phone calls if you're comfortable with that!

💠 Petitions for LGBTQIA+ rights 💠

• Reinstate protections for LGBTQIA+ Persons in Healthcare (❗❗ White House must respond if the goal is reached)

• DON'T ALLOW DISCRIMINATION IN HEALTH CARE (ACLU)

• Thread to many more petitions >>

💠 Petitions for Black lives 💠

• for Robert Fuller

• for Rayshard Brooks

• Thread to more petitions >>

I just checked every petition in this thread from 3 days ago and still none of them have reached their goal :( please give it a look!

💠 COVID-19 Safety 💠

a bit trickier to tackle b/c everyone's making up their own rules but if you live somewhere in the US that's being overly lax with masks and reopening, find your local officials' contact info and tell them your concerns:

• https://usmayors.org/mayors/meet-the-mayors

• https://usa.gov/local-governments

or consider starting/supporting a petition for your local area! here's one for OC that's looking promising but the handful of other local petitions I've found haven't gotten enough traction.

💠 Help the country of Yemen 💠

:((( People there are on the verge of extinction in the biggest humanitarian crisis in the world... It's sad as hell that something as enormously tragic like this is something that individuals feel responsible to do something about. This thread has links to petitions and places to donate.

#BlackLivesMatter

Hi hi! Things have been crazy the past month—in my personal life, work life, in this country and everywhere around the globe.... I'll catch up on those things later but for now I wanted to share this post that I wrote for FB but it's my message for everyone out there. ;v; Stay safe!

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hi facebook friends, long time no talk! I just wanted to say some things to you all, depending on where you stand 🤗

1) If you don't believe that #BlackLivesMatter is important / believe we should stop talking about it now, I want to ask you to think about how this makes you feel: some people have to live in fear for their life every day just because of the way they're born. Many are killed and harmed for simply existing, and not all of the people committing these crimes are being held accountable. :( Those victims could've been you—but it's not you, and not by anyone's choice—and you can definitely do something to help push for change!

2) If you care about #BlackLivesMatter but don't know how to help, here are a few links to start at!

• "How to Support the Struggle Against Police Brutality"—lots of great info and links to resources and funds here!

• Nationwide Bail Fund—if you can afford to, please donate to help get innocent protesters out of the jails that're highly dangerous for COVID-19 spread, plus... it's literally our First Amendment right to protest... [they accept PayPal which I think should work for non-US folks too!]

• List of petitions that help the movement or demand justice for victims 😤

• 8 Can't Wait—I've read that these policies are ineffective bc there's lots of loopholes but it's still a good starting place to learn about what your (if you're in the US) local policies are/should be and it tells you where you can email to demand for action! Pressuring local gov't is important!

Other ways to help aside from showing solidarity at protests: vote, be compassionate and support those around you who are drained from fighting 💗, share helpful resources, check in with your friends going to protests and equip them w/ supplies if they need em, stay informed and arm yourself with evidence for your beliefs, talk to people and educate them until casual racism is eliminated too. Good luck!!

3) If you've already been doing whatever you can in this fight, I'm proud of you for taking a stand even though it's not easy. 🥺 Don't forget compassion fatigue is a thing, and to forgive yourself for being stressed af while we're in the middle of a pandemic and revolution and we're surrounded by shitty ass supremacists. Keep going at it!! We're already seeing some sparks of change! Take care ❤