Empty

It's late, but I don't want to go to bed. Because when I close my eyes, tomorrow arrives. And tomorrow will be the same as today and yesterday. My alarm will go off, and I'll wonder the same thing: why should I get out of bed? Luckily it isn't always this way; luckily I have somehow gotten over these slumps in the past. But right now barely anything is rewarding or meaningful enough to make it worthwhile to put myself out there where I have dreadful responsibilities, and people are constantly horrible, and I have to keep pretending to laugh, pretending that social interaction doesn't feel like a chore right now. At least it's a phase! I think. Help, have you seen the motivation and inspiration in my life? I seem to have lost it.

me when I don't have wifi: (WRITES 10 BLOGS AND WHINES ABOUT WIFI)
me when I have wifi: (doesn't really feel like blogging, doesn't know what to write about)

Dream♡

Active Gemini delights me ;u;♥

We sang a present for our beloved talented angel Chiisana~ (groooosssss)

And it features very pretty art by fuyuneru!

I'm really happy at how nice everyone sounds too//// My Gemini bbys have such pleasing voices for these types of songs. ;u;u;; It's almost like a sequel to Way Back Into Love! I actually really love listening to this despite how many times I've heard it while mixing, which is rare eheee

Please enjoy~

【Gemini】 Suzy & Baekhyun - Dream 「HBD Chiisana!」

【Vocals】
✩Jeffrey (https://www.youtube.com/user/jevacado) (unaffection)
✩Mimi (http://www.youtube.com/mimimoiselle) (x3LoveyDovey)
✩Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)
✩Jay (https://www.youtube.com/jaysingyou)
✩Ryan (http://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)

【Art】
✩fuyuneru/ふゆねる (http://www.youtube.com/fuyuneru)
(Check out her pretty commissions at http://www.tinyurl.com/fuyuartcommission !!)

【Mix】
✩Tuning - Ryan (http://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)
✩Timing - Mimi (http://www.youtube.com/mimimoiselle)
✩EQ, Volumes, Master - Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)

【Video】
✩Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)
✩JW (https://www.youtube.com/JeniferWirawa...)

【Lyric Translation】
✩ilyricsbuzz, itshysterie, fy-exo (modifications by Eva and Sohlyist)

Today I found out

that somebody (whose identity I actually don't know.. it's my friend's friend) who saw me and had asked me about my hair during Fanime back in May.......... dyed her hair pink apparently because of me! Q///A///Q
UHUHUHUHUHUHUHU
huuhuuhuhuuuuuu/////
sniffles grossly
I don't know why I'm so extra touched by this but I am LMAO I am a melted piece of fluff

I do miss my pinkish coral ombre hair. :'c Considering redyeing it by myselfff eehhhhhhhh......

Basically blonde now qq!!
Tbh I can't get over this selfie from AX that I wanted to take with Chiisana to show off our flower/grass pins from Kazou, until we got photobombed by a bunch of our cute youtaite friends so it turned into a cute group picture ;U; I love this picture so much!!! I miss this..

A post unintentionally about arms

And then it was another 3 days without wifi and I rolled around from boredom. WHYYYYY.
At least I guess I wasn't stuck at home the whole time. uAu I think I really underappreciate how blessed I am..... My current job is so flexible and chill that often on Fridays, everyone works from home/out of office. And a few times, I've been able to go back to my old accounting job that I left with a lot of sadness after working part time for 5 years, and they welcome me with open arms! ;u; They let me sit in my old office that's been vacant since I left.

My old office that made me look a lot more important than I was looool

Yesterday, I was planning to do that—but it turned out that they were having a company lunch event in Monterey (a seaside city a bit more than an hour away) and my old boss invited me to go despite my not even being a current employee LOL.. alsdkfsdjf that was so awesome of her! So even though it meant I had to delay doing actual work to after getting back, I tagged along which was a nice change of pace and scenery. I can't believe I was able to randomly have a good seafood meal for free!!! Everyone at my table got full before me so I had most of the crab legs in the cioppino by myself omg!!!!! I'M SO SPOILED Q___Q

random beach trip so worth!!111

But as per usual, the awesome in my life is balanced out by shit. 8DDDD
Last night after I did actual work, I had late dinner with Chiisa and Ian—who I was so excited to see that I broke into a run to give him a surprise hug. AND I SURE SURPRISED HIM, ALRIGHT. By faceplanting right behind him. Into the sidewalk. Because I stupidly forgot that there was no traction beneath my sandals, SO DOWN I WENT..! Aaaaaaaaand I sprained my left elbow, which absorbed most of my weight in my effort to keep my new stupid smartphone in my hand unscathed. =v=;;;..... S-should I be proud that I saved money by not breaking this overly expensive device? My arm will heal up eventually anyway!!! Right!! (Ok having only one arm that's able to bend more than 30 degrees is real fucking annoying; I wouldn't recommend it. Don't be like me.)



I totally forgot to post the PRODUCE90 round 3 entry that I was in, so here it is, even though I've already written about what rank I got from this orzzzz

When this song first aired on Produce 101, I wished I could cover it—so I'm happy that I could take part in the Fingertips group. :> I'm basically the main rapper, and my Gemini sib Ryan is my rap partner!

「COLLAB」첫사랑 (First Love) - Fingertips

「CAST」
Eva
(http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)
Hanii
( https://www.youtube.com/user/itshanni3 )
Hari
( http://www.youtube.com/user/iheartkpo... )
Mi Young
( http://www.youtube.com/user/babyyheav... )
Min
( http://www.youtube.com/user/namjijii )
Raien
( https://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho )

〈 CREDITS 〉
Audio Mixer: Hanii
Video Mixer: Mi Young

Rank me rank me rank me up

And so concludes my maso run being in two singing competitions at once..! It was fun and it was suffering.

Round rankings came out for both Lyrica System Online (youtaite chorus battle) and PRODUCE90 (k-pop individual battle) in the past few days, and I'm so proud—Gemini passed round 1 of LSO, and all members of Gemini participating in PD90 passed round 3!!!!

I can't believe that I made it up to rank 7 in PRODUCE90 ;A;....... That means a lot of people must have voted for me and I'm very thankful!
Unfortunately it's the end of the road for me here because I've decided to drop out and pass on my spot to someone else who can be more dedicated to the contest. ;; It was pretty hard balancing everything in the past month, and I'm done with barely sleeping and constantly feeling stressed out and worried about not being able to finish everything on time.. Regardless, I'm really glad that I joined PRODUCE90 because I got to know a ton of people and sang with folks I've never worked with before ;u; It's been sooooo long since I've been in a k-pop collab that wasn't within Gemini, and I've been really yearning to do more k-pop collabs—just didn't have the time to organize any. But now I'm walking away with new friends and rekindled friendships and have a few upcoming collabs with them, which is exciting~

And hopefully I'll be able to commit more time to Gemini's journey in LSO!

WE'RE ALL IN SHOCK TBH...... We ranked 5th place (technically it's more like 4th since two groups tied for 1st?) in round 1 of LSO !!!!! Out of 87 groups!! HOLY FUCKING SHIT. AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm so proud of everyone on my team—they worked incredibly hard and I'm happy they're getting the recognition they deserve. ;;;; We didn't imagine we could do this well..... So many groups had a ton of talent and honestly, we had concerns about our song choice. Firstly because it's so different from usual CB songs (which was the point but could easily backfire) and secondly because we felt that it was a song chosen for the statement rather than to show off actual vocal ability. And then I worry because I feel like I have a lot more to learn in making mixes sound polished like other mixers can. IDK WE WERE JUST REALLY WORRIED..... 5th place is such an honor ;A;!!!

more like /lie/fi

Me: (has been home for 40 minutes, the wifi is down again, and data is limited)

Me: jesus god life is so boring without wifi

Me: no wonder I wanted to make a cosplay

【LSO-R1】SHaVaDaVa in AMAZING♪【Gemini】

LOL this post is so unbelievably late, even if I technically have already linked this video here before. My life was entirely consumed by LSO for a few days, and then I went back to dying from cosplay hell all the way up til Anime Expo. Now I'm back from the trip and trying to settle back into normal working life! It's not going very well!!

So here is Gemini's Lyrica System Online round 1 entry that we worked really hard on! <3

We consider this our big comeback since the last time we participated in a competition during 2011's DUBattle Royale, and I couldn't be happier to still have the same 6 vocalists—and new additions to our family!! We're super thankful to our visual team: Curry our [maso] amazing animator, Mari who was willing to help as animation support despite being rly busy, Chienu who drew us a ton of gorgeous character art, and Amjupy who drew awesome background art. ♥ They worked incredibly hard and we're lucky as hell to have their talents and sweetness on board, as well as Razzy who was always there for priceless support and company. ;u;

For sure next round (if we pass), we have to do some things differently, but I'm pretty proud of what we've made and accomplished~

At a school where gaming is discouraged and the Gaming Club shut down, 5 anonymous students have been invited to party up by the student council president! She can’t tell anyone her secret, but writes about it on her blog… http://goo.gl/T5qri7

【Listen】
✩MP3 - https://goo.gl/qstH08 
✩Acapella - https://goo.gl/eR58aS 
✩Script - https://goo.gl/dBmBc5 
✩Special Remix - https://goo.gl/lTyNeL 

【Original】
✩“SHaVaDaVa in AMAZING♪" by Yuilevi♡

【Vocals】
✩Mimi (http://www.youtube.com/mimimoiselle) 
✩小さな (chiisana) (http://www.youtube.com/ChiisanaChanx3) 
✩Ryan (http://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)
✩Jay (https://www.youtube.com/jaysingyou)
✩Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva) 
✩Jeffrey (https://www.youtube.com/user/jevacado) 

【Animation】
✩Animation - *curry (https://www.youtube.com/SachiiKou)
✩Animation (Main Support) - 小さな (chiisana) (http://www.youtube.com/ChiisanaChanx3) 
✩Animation Support & Storyboard - Mari (http://www.youtube.com/ruukai)
✩Animation Support - Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)
✩Storyboard - Ryan (http://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)

【Art】
✩Characters - chienu (http://chienu.deviantart.com)
✩Original Backgrounds - AMJUPY (http://miekiyo.deviantart.com)

【Art Resources】
✩ https://goo.gl/FSj2Sg

【Mix】
✩Tuning - Ryan (http://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)
✩Timing - Mimi (http://www.youtube.com/mimimoiselle) 
✩Timing, Volumes, Master - Eva (http://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva) 
✩EQ & Volumes - 小さな (chiisana) (http://www.youtube.com/ChiisanaChanx3) 

【Gemini Signature】
✩*curry (https://www.youtube.com/SachiiKou)
(NOTE FOR JUDGES: Please exclude the ending speaking from our judged entry! We like to have a signature at the end of our videos, and we had our lovely animator for this one. Thanks!!)

【Special Thanks♡】
✩Razzy (http://www.youtube.com/itsRazzyness)

Our theme for this round was 亮 (bright, radiant, shining). We hope that you enjoy our bright song choice, our shining animation, and the radiant blooming friendship of Gemini!!! Thank you for watching our entry ^^