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Cursed Cooking Pt. 2: Babby's First Cookies
If you need some context for how clueless and inexperienced I am with baking and cooking in general, I wrote about it on my last post heh heh..
I thought I'd attempt some cookies today as a pick-me-up—didn't expect for it to turn into a 5 hour long venture.....
Because anything I make would only be consumed by me and my parents, I seeked out a small batch recipe that could be made in a toaster oven..... I simply wanted to try out making something with whatever we already had in the house and I saw that some people on the internet successfully substituted cocoa powder with hot chocolate mix so decided to try that.... and also I didn't have the specific types of sugar and salt that the recipe listed so substituted those too orzzzz and don't have vanilla extract or chocolate chips so skipped those..... LOL BASICALLY I SET MYSELF UP FOR CURSED COOKIES; I knew from the start. Had no expectations and it still managed to surprise me.
I really shouldn't be allowed to make food without supervision.
I thought I'd attempt some cookies today as a pick-me-up—didn't expect for it to turn into a 5 hour long venture.....
Because anything I make would only be consumed by me and my parents, I seeked out a small batch recipe that could be made in a toaster oven..... I simply wanted to try out making something with whatever we already had in the house and I saw that some people on the internet successfully substituted cocoa powder with hot chocolate mix so decided to try that.... and also I didn't have the specific types of sugar and salt that the recipe listed so substituted those too orzzzz and don't have vanilla extract or chocolate chips so skipped those..... LOL BASICALLY I SET MYSELF UP FOR CURSED COOKIES; I knew from the start. Had no expectations and it still managed to surprise me.
I really shouldn't be allowed to make food without supervision.
I Just Made the Most Cursed Fake Churros Ever
So.... I basically have no experience making "fun food." In fact, I can't even say that I can cook—I can assist my parents via their direction and do the basics of the basics that require little thought or practice, enough to keep full and healthy. But crafting food for fun has never been of interest to anyone in this house... o<-< Things like desserts, baking, deep frying are pretty much uncharted territory for me. I've helped friends with measuring ingredients for cookies a few times in my lifetime probably!!
Last week, the Disney Parks churro tots recipe made waves in my work group chat and I thought, "That's so cool!!! Maybe someday when I get really bored in quarantine I'll think about giving that a try!"
A few days later, Denny also linked it to me (extremely impressed that he remembers that I like churros and Disney omfg) and I thought, "Dammit now I want these!! But no one would make them for me and I don't have the ingredients T___T..." Continued to have that on my mind for a few days as I kept missing the novelty of eating desserts and going out for treats with friends... Scoured the kitchen and discovered that we surprisingly have flour, butter, and an adequate amount of eggs hmmm....
I am not bored at all—there are actually too many things that I want or need to do—but at some point my mental priority switch was flipped and HERE I AM WANTING TO GIVE DESSERT-MAKING A TRY!!! Starting with the churros, fuck it!! How bad could it be!! How badly could this possibly go!!
So here's how things fell apart i m m e d i a t e l y:
> Recipe calls for piping bag with a star tip.
> Can't be bothered.
> What if I just roll the dough into balls instead? Lol it's probably fine
> Recipe calls for both cinnamon and cinnamon sugar.
> No cinnamon available for grocery pick-up.
> Settles for cinnamon sugar only. Can't make too much of a difference right?
> Crap, I waited a day and the cinnamon sugar sold out.
> WAIT WHAT IF I WENT A TOTALLY CREATIVE ROUTE......
✨ Thus the idea for Cinnamon Toast Crunch churro balls was born. ✨
Last week, the Disney Parks churro tots recipe made waves in my work group chat and I thought, "That's so cool!!! Maybe someday when I get really bored in quarantine I'll think about giving that a try!"
A few days later, Denny also linked it to me (extremely impressed that he remembers that I like churros and Disney omfg) and I thought, "Dammit now I want these!! But no one would make them for me and I don't have the ingredients T___T..." Continued to have that on my mind for a few days as I kept missing the novelty of eating desserts and going out for treats with friends... Scoured the kitchen and discovered that we surprisingly have flour, butter, and an adequate amount of eggs hmmm....
I am not bored at all—there are actually too many things that I want or need to do—but at some point my mental priority switch was flipped and HERE I AM WANTING TO GIVE DESSERT-MAKING A TRY!!! Starting with the churros, fuck it!! How bad could it be!! How badly could this possibly go!!
So here's how things fell apart i m m e d i a t e l y:
> Recipe calls for piping bag with a star tip.
> Can't be bothered.
> What if I just roll the dough into balls instead? Lol it's probably fine
> Recipe calls for both cinnamon and cinnamon sugar.
> No cinnamon available for grocery pick-up.
> Settles for cinnamon sugar only. Can't make too much of a difference right?
> Crap, I waited a day and the cinnamon sugar sold out.
> WAIT WHAT IF I WENT A TOTALLY CREATIVE ROUTE......
✨ Thus the idea for Cinnamon Toast Crunch churro balls was born. ✨
Zutto ChamJam~!
Sunday, April 5, 2020
0 comments Labels: covers (collab/chorus/groupdub), covers (non-serious/short)
YEEEEY another collab that I was really looking forward to came out! There's something fun and nostalgic about representative singing as an anime character, which I grew up doing but never do anymore oops....
It's the group character song from OshiBudo aka If My Favorite Pop Idol Made it to the Budoukan, I Would Die which is my favorite anime from the season that just ended. ;u; Idol collabs hnngg I'm actually also organizing my own collab from this anime as well!which i really need to work on but animal crossing has me on a tight leash
🥺 ikon and Reba somehow trusted me enough to let me sing as the center of the group: the adorable, earnest, sweetest supportive friend, best pink leader Reo!! 💖
Over the past week, I've replayed this collab an uncountable amount; I really enjoy it..... The energy from each and every vocalist is off the charts and perfect 👌 I like everyone's voices a lot. And the way our mixer Jess made those group parts blend and sound like they could be the original vocals of the song?? So impressed. It was an honor to be in this!
It's the group character song from OshiBudo aka If My Favorite Pop Idol Made it to the Budoukan, I Would Die which is my favorite anime from the season that just ended. ;u; Idol collabs hnngg I'm actually also organizing my own collab from this anime as well!
🥺 ikon and Reba somehow trusted me enough to let me sing as the center of the group: the adorable, earnest, sweetest supportive friend, best pink leader Reo!! 💖
Over the past week, I've replayed this collab an uncountable amount; I really enjoy it..... The energy from each and every vocalist is off the charts and perfect 👌 I like everyone's voices a lot. And the way our mixer Jess made those group parts blend and sound like they could be the original vocals of the song?? So impressed. It was an honor to be in this!
【ムラサギ】 Zutto ChamJam「ずっとChamJam」【歌ってみた】
►VOCALS◄
Eva 「waterpixieva」
すぃる 「@polarisyl」
Fuyu 「 Fuyuland 」
Reba 「 Rebear」
月乃 「 月乃」
Kiyo 「 MewKiyoko」
ikon 「 MurasagiYT 」
Jess 「 lilmenchi」
►mix◄ Jess
►mix support & video◄ Reba
~ ✨ ~ ✨ ~
Absolutely no shade at all—this happened before I heard anyone else's lines—but when I was recording, I went and tried to sing as all of the ChamJam girls.......... It was way too much fun LOL.
RESTART YOURSELF
Saturday, March 28, 2020
2 comments Labels: covers (collab/chorus/groupdub), covers (solos/duets), Gemini, mixing, rambling but with slightly more thought
Without a doubt I've been procrastinating writing this post and I can't really explain why LOL...... I'm definitely proud of these uploads—it's not the case where after uploading I feel so embarrassed about my work that I avoid the video for months, which definitely happens... Maybe it's because I dedicated a whole tireless month to working on just cover projects (aka worked my ass off to get these out before Animal Crossing took over my life) so as soon as I was done, I wanted to be absolved of any effort or responsibility related to them for a while? Hm idk... Or perhaps it's because I'm proud of them that it feels weird to admit so and write about it in detail? ^^;; There's a lot I want to say...
Two big uploads that mean a lot to me!!! 💓
The moment I heard Elsa sing Show Yourself on my first viewing of Frozen 2, I just knew it was a song I wanted to sing. Frozen holds a permanent residency and large real estate in my heart for being what helped me explore my feelings and heal through a difficult time—and I just love Elsa and the whole icy motif (metaphorically and aesthetically) and the two sisters' different experiences with isolation and being honest with oneself. The first film is a masterpiece. 😭
The sequel is...fine? good'ish? But on my second viewing of it I sobbed through Show Yourself... I like the lyrics a lot! My favorite line is "I have always been a fortress, cold secrets deep inside" aaah it just resonates with me so hard...... In many ways I try to be pretty open—like how I share my thoughts and experiences on this blog!—but in many other ways I seem to always be keeping my walls and guard up. Have been criticized for that before by someone who was one of the most important people to me at the time ;; And honestly around everyone who doesn't know about my singing, weeb, and k-pop interests, I'm extremely secretive and not comfortable with talking about my interests... >< thus it's hard for me to form a close relationship with anyone outside of this circle or anyone from whom I fear judgment. And due to my thorny personality I'm often described as an ice queen which certainly has its negative connotations but I've embraced and like the nickname haha.
I also really love the build-up of the song—it made it super fun to sing because there's such a variety of emotions and range to it ^^!! I especially looove singing low and emotional and chilly, and then there's an arc of self-realization and then breathy AND THAT SUPER HIGH OPERATIC FALSETTO I DIDN'T KNOW I COULD DO and then slightly warmer and then strong! until I'm belting and sadly can't even reach the notes without mixed(?) voice hahaha. And with Disney songs, you can be emotive and nuanced in ways that poppy songs often don't allow: there's somberness, there's reservation, there's wonder, reflection, curiosity, confidence, openness!
I'm so, so, so happy that I covered this song. ;u; Recently I started feeling a lot like I wasn't sure in my own singing capabilities and to be frank, in a lot of collabs I've been in, I'm not that happy with how my singing or vocal tone sounds compared to everyone else? Even if I do redoes, sometimes it feels like I'm hitting a wall. It just kinda feels like GOD FINALLY I got to actually sing and show people some of my strengths!!! Like real singing that I'm proud of!!! 😭😭
Phew okay I practically just wrote an essay LOL. One last thing-- I used to do multi-language covers often (or at least just posting more covers in different languages and recently I've only been doing JP and KR) AND I DID NOT FREAKING REALIZE. It's been ten years since my last multi-language cover.............. jeebus...................... Let's not think about that too hard! Anyway I learned while working on Show Yourself that I basically don't know anything about any language lol. Especially with the added pressure of knowing that viewers would more pay attention to my pronunciation than usual and with this somewhat more classical style there's less room for fudgery than in poppy songs. . . it was a long struggle learning to better deliver the different accents in all these languages. Still much to improve on. Bless Fome for not only making me sound good with this mix but also teaching me some of the nuances in the Japanese and Mandarin that I missed!
Anyway here's the video I just wrote a thesis on. Queen Elsa rocks.
Now the second upload is even more special !!!! Nine years ago, 5 friends and I decided to join a competition (unofficial chorus battle) called DUBattle Royale with the group name Gemini, because among our group we had many "vocal twins" and we blend extraordinarily well together. What a fucking beautiful thing it is that the six of us can still sing together after all these years..... I call them my first found family because they really are that to me—I know that regardless of the ebb and flow in our changing lives, I can always still count on them to have my back and cherish that special bond that only we can understand. We were hoping to have a group meetup again in Toronto late this year but with the pandemic there's no way so maybe next year for our 10th anni. :>
So yeah we sang this amazing IDOLiSH7 song that's about flying high, smiling together to overcome challenges, having courage, and reaching for our dreams together !
Our anniversary date unfortunately fell on the day that shelter-in-place was first announced in the US and in general there was a lot of grief and anxiety on social media—so as a group we discussed if we should hold off on the upload/if it would be tonedeaf to sing something so cheery in these worrisome times, but in the end we decided that it might be a welcome breath of fresh air for some people who were looking for some light in the darkness? ;; Thankfully I think we were right ;;;; To hear that we helped cheer up some folks makes this video even more meaningful than it already was. I love it a lot.
We were super fortunate to get to collaborate with an incredible visual team (I call them the visual fairies!) who are all sweet and skilled as heck and I greatly treasure their friendship too. 😩 The video is so gorgeous..... Look at all these pretty pastel colors........ Our characters and different personalities were captured so well.... The clothing designs are perfect for all of us..... The camera movements are expertly smooth and the video is just sparkly good vibes all around. I would absolutely work with pash, kayla, and azuka again without hesitation anytime, anywhere. 😭
goodbye back to animal crossing
Two big uploads that mean a lot to me!!! 💓
The moment I heard Elsa sing Show Yourself on my first viewing of Frozen 2, I just knew it was a song I wanted to sing. Frozen holds a permanent residency and large real estate in my heart for being what helped me explore my feelings and heal through a difficult time—and I just love Elsa and the whole icy motif (metaphorically and aesthetically) and the two sisters' different experiences with isolation and being honest with oneself. The first film is a masterpiece. 😭
The sequel is...fine? good'ish? But on my second viewing of it I sobbed through Show Yourself... I like the lyrics a lot! My favorite line is "I have always been a fortress, cold secrets deep inside" aaah it just resonates with me so hard...... In many ways I try to be pretty open—like how I share my thoughts and experiences on this blog!—but in many other ways I seem to always be keeping my walls and guard up. Have been criticized for that before by someone who was one of the most important people to me at the time ;; And honestly around everyone who doesn't know about my singing, weeb, and k-pop interests, I'm extremely secretive and not comfortable with talking about my interests... >< thus it's hard for me to form a close relationship with anyone outside of this circle or anyone from whom I fear judgment. And due to my thorny personality I'm often described as an ice queen which certainly has its negative connotations but I've embraced and like the nickname haha.
I also really love the build-up of the song—it made it super fun to sing because there's such a variety of emotions and range to it ^^!! I especially looove singing low and emotional and chilly, and then there's an arc of self-realization and then breathy AND THAT SUPER HIGH OPERATIC FALSETTO I DIDN'T KNOW I COULD DO and then slightly warmer and then strong! until I'm belting and sadly can't even reach the notes without mixed(?) voice hahaha. And with Disney songs, you can be emotive and nuanced in ways that poppy songs often don't allow: there's somberness, there's reservation, there's wonder, reflection, curiosity, confidence, openness!
I'm so, so, so happy that I covered this song. ;u; Recently I started feeling a lot like I wasn't sure in my own singing capabilities and to be frank, in a lot of collabs I've been in, I'm not that happy with how my singing or vocal tone sounds compared to everyone else? Even if I do redoes, sometimes it feels like I'm hitting a wall. It just kinda feels like GOD FINALLY I got to actually sing and show people some of my strengths!!! Like real singing that I'm proud of!!! 😭😭
Phew okay I practically just wrote an essay LOL. One last thing-- I used to do multi-language covers often (or at least just posting more covers in different languages and recently I've only been doing JP and KR) AND I DID NOT FREAKING REALIZE. It's been ten years since my last multi-language cover.............. jeebus...................... Let's not think about that too hard! Anyway I learned while working on Show Yourself that I basically don't know anything about any language lol. Especially with the added pressure of knowing that viewers would more pay attention to my pronunciation than usual and with this somewhat more classical style there's less room for fudgery than in poppy songs. . . it was a long struggle learning to better deliver the different accents in all these languages. Still much to improve on. Bless Fome for not only making me sound good with this mix but also teaching me some of the nuances in the Japanese and Mandarin that I missed!
Anyway here's the video I just wrote a thesis on. Queen Elsa rocks.
~✨~✨~
Now the second upload is even more special !!!! Nine years ago, 5 friends and I decided to join a competition (unofficial chorus battle) called DUBattle Royale with the group name Gemini, because among our group we had many "vocal twins" and we blend extraordinarily well together. What a fucking beautiful thing it is that the six of us can still sing together after all these years..... I call them my first found family because they really are that to me—I know that regardless of the ebb and flow in our changing lives, I can always still count on them to have my back and cherish that special bond that only we can understand. We were hoping to have a group meetup again in Toronto late this year but with the pandemic there's no way so maybe next year for our 10th anni. :>
So yeah we sang this amazing IDOLiSH7 song that's about flying high, smiling together to overcome challenges, having courage, and reaching for our dreams together !
Our anniversary date unfortunately fell on the day that shelter-in-place was first announced in the US and in general there was a lot of grief and anxiety on social media—so as a group we discussed if we should hold off on the upload/if it would be tonedeaf to sing something so cheery in these worrisome times, but in the end we decided that it might be a welcome breath of fresh air for some people who were looking for some light in the darkness? ;; Thankfully I think we were right ;;;; To hear that we helped cheer up some folks makes this video even more meaningful than it already was. I love it a lot.
We were super fortunate to get to collaborate with an incredible visual team (I call them the visual fairies!) who are all sweet and skilled as heck and I greatly treasure their friendship too. 😩 The video is so gorgeous..... Look at all these pretty pastel colors........ Our characters and different personalities were captured so well.... The clothing designs are perfect for all of us..... The camera movements are expertly smooth and the video is just sparkly good vibes all around. I would absolutely work with pash, kayla, and azuka again without hesitation anytime, anywhere. 😭
【Gemini】 IDOLiSH7 - RESTART POiNTER 「9th Anniversary!」
【Art】
✩Sketch & Lineart - pash (https://www.twitter.com/piikoarts)
✩Color - kayla (https://twitter.com/kaylajungxo)
【Mix】
✩Color - kayla (https://twitter.com/kaylajungxo)
【Mix】
✩Main Mix - Eva (https://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva)
✩Tune - Ryan (https://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)
✩Base EQ - 小さな (chiisana) (https://www.youtube.com/c/chiisanauta)
✩Tune - Ryan (https://www.youtube.com/RyanEatPho)
✩Base EQ - 小さな (chiisana) (https://www.youtube.com/c/chiisanauta)
Fun fact: every Gemini member has a strong preference towards girl idols lololol so we end up singing a lot of songs that cater more to the girls' ranges and voices. But for this one we girls have been like, "YESSSS OUR BOYS GET TO SHINE SO MUCH!! GET ITTT!!!" hehehe Jay especially is the standout in this song—he is the center of this comeback!! 💚
Oh and also I mixed............. the mix evolved a lot lol. We started recording this a long time ago and my mixing style and what I want to convey in this mix has changed a shit ton throughout the working period. I ended up settling on this wide sound with the vocals not too pushed forward, still bright but not overly crispy, fullness in the mids/lows, wet prechoruses but dry choruses. There's definitely something here that's preventing this mix from being on the level of professional that Fome is able to achieve in his mixes—I'm certainly hitting somewhat of a wall... but given my lack of advanced knowledge and not having as much in my toolkit compared to many other mixers, I'm overall kind of satisfied with the mix? It's pretty contained and doesn't make me cringe? lol
Looking forward to Gemini's 10th anniversary project~ 💞
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Okay I totally meant to write this post like 5 days ago but this week has been quarantine and Animal Crossing madness LOL...
Within just a mere two days after I wrote "page 0" on March 14th, everything has wildly escalated ! !
Okay I totally meant to write this post like 5 days ago but this week has been quarantine and Animal Crossing madness LOL...
Within just a mere two days after I wrote "page 0" on March 14th, everything has wildly escalated ! !
CODEX Asymmetry
Monday, March 9, 2020
2 comments Labels: art (not mine), covers (collab/chorus/groupdub), gross fangirlling
AAAAAAH HI I've been very occupied lately with working on the coverthatI'muploadinglatertoday but before that goes up, I wanted to take a moment at this absolutely incomprehensible hour of 3 AM to give this collab its own post because it deserves the world!!!! 😭💕 A whole dream come true!!!
I've mentioned the group CYPHER here a few times before—while I was participating in the same chorus battle as them... standing outside the restaurant window during their group dinner at AX... (LOL OKAY FOR CLARITY I was also actually invited but had to pass it up for our Gemini group dinner 💗)—I've just genuinely been such a huge fan of them since they first formed for ACB1.
The six vocalist boys have this magical chemistry and it's amazing that they each have different personalities to their voices but they all come together into a charming blend, and they sing with so much emotion that you can't not be drawn into their world. (Some emotional favorites: W, Our Sky) And then they always have the best visuals sdjkfslkd just out of this world... Their artists do gorgeous work and Howl is an animation visionary... And for ACB2, they came back and did self-written original songs for all three rounds which is just insane and they're fucking legit amazing songs 😭 Truly I admire every single one of them to the moon and back.... An extremely skilled collective of people who are also really cool?! I'm definitely privileged to be friends with all of them and to be able to hang out with them in person. They are really such a good group. The pinnacle of both quality and heart. I can't fangirl enough over them, sorry. #HailCypher
yaaaaaaaa sooooooooooooooooooo I think it was back in October or something when I was in a car with Fome and Chiisana, and Fome suddenly asks us if we'd sing in SCB3 with Cypher lol. I was like WHAT I CAN'T DO THAT. WHAT???? NO.... I DON'T KNOW...... and there's just been a whole lot of self-esteem attacking since and working on my singing and my Japanese pronunciation, and I'm honestly still personally not satisfied with how I sound in our entry but I'm extremely glad that I joined them in the end. ;;;; It was super well received and so far no complaints about me!
It's been a lot of fun!! Everyone is lovely and hilarious and our entry is freaking.....my favorite thing ever.............I just love it, I love it, I love it so much, I love it waaaaay too much. T___T 💞 The song is wonderful; the visuals are beautiful and bright and fun and creative and engaging and impeccably polished and also my taste in colors djkdfjs; it's a sweet spectrum of voices full of personality and all masterfully mixed together into a massive dosage of serotonin.
Please enjoy our cover of Yasuda Rei's social media-themed song "Asymmetry" !
I've mentioned the group CYPHER here a few times before—while I was participating in the same chorus battle as them... standing outside the restaurant window during their group dinner at AX... (LOL OKAY FOR CLARITY I was also actually invited but had to pass it up for our Gemini group dinner 💗)—I've just genuinely been such a huge fan of them since they first formed for ACB1.
The six vocalist boys have this magical chemistry and it's amazing that they each have different personalities to their voices but they all come together into a charming blend, and they sing with so much emotion that you can't not be drawn into their world. (Some emotional favorites: W, Our Sky) And then they always have the best visuals sdjkfslkd just out of this world... Their artists do gorgeous work and Howl is an animation visionary... And for ACB2, they came back and did self-written original songs for all three rounds which is just insane and they're fucking legit amazing songs 😭 Truly I admire every single one of them to the moon and back.... An extremely skilled collective of people who are also really cool?! I'm definitely privileged to be friends with all of them and to be able to hang out with them in person. They are really such a good group. The pinnacle of both quality and heart. I can't fangirl enough over them, sorry. #HailCypher
yaaaaaaaa sooooooooooooooooooo I think it was back in October or something when I was in a car with Fome and Chiisana, and Fome suddenly asks us if we'd sing in SCB3 with Cypher lol. I was like WHAT I CAN'T DO THAT. WHAT???? NO.... I DON'T KNOW...... and there's just been a whole lot of self-esteem attacking since and working on my singing and my Japanese pronunciation, and I'm honestly still personally not satisfied with how I sound in our entry but I'm extremely glad that I joined them in the end. ;;;; It was super well received and so far no complaints about me!
It's been a lot of fun!! Everyone is lovely and hilarious and our entry is freaking.....my favorite thing ever.............I just love it, I love it, I love it so much, I love it waaaaay too much. T___T 💞 The song is wonderful; the visuals are beautiful and bright and fun and creative and engaging and impeccably polished and also my taste in colors djkdfjs; it's a sweet spectrum of voices full of personality and all masterfully mixed together into a massive dosage of serotonin.
Please enjoy our cover of Yasuda Rei's social media-themed song "Asymmetry" !
✜ Vocals by:
Angelica: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRI1...
Arianna: https://www.youtube.com/user/AcchanCh...
Chiisana: https://www.youtube.com/user/Chiisana...
Eva: https://www.youtube.com/waterpixieva
Howl: https://youtube.com/c/howru
Jae: https://youtube.com/channel/UCNMrzPwk...
Kuraicy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVqO...
SquaDus: https://youtube.com/user/SquaDus2007
✜ Mix by:
Fome https://www.youtube.com/fome
Critique by Eva and Kuraicy
✜ Movie by:
Bakyaan: https://www.youtube.com/user/bakyaan
✜ Art by:
Yuki (Character Art): http://yukihomu.deviantart.com/
Chisacha (Staff Art & Props): https://chisacha.deviantart.com
~✨~✨~
And I thought things couldn't get better.....but no.....but no..... Arianna had to go and combine some of my favorite people....with my favorite game..... And drew this adorable piece of us all (staff included!) as Animal Crossing characters, I caaaan't 😭😭😭
Yuki - Chisacha - Bakyaan - Squadus - Kura - Howl - Arianna - Angelica - Jae - Fome - Eva - ChiisanaThanks for all the support for CODEX unit~ 💕— 伯爵 Arianna 🌸 CODEX (@Hakushaku_Ari) February 26, 2020
Let's add some more cuteness with a really fast Animal Crossing version of us i i did for fun hahaha ✨💖 pic.twitter.com/mSV0Ukm0UH
Cartoons are good
T_____T This scene from ep 7 of 22/7 (nanabun no nijyuuni) really reminded me of this post of mine ("In All Honesty") that I often reference... This episode hit hard, man. So relatable. An absolute rollercoaster in the most painful, fulfilling way.
~✨~✨~
I might currently be following the most anime I've ever actively followed concurrently in a season? ;v; Most anime doesn't seem to speak to me very much, but this season has a lot that I'm liking!
🔹 If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budoukan, I Would Die (Oshi ga Budoukan Ittekuretara Shinu) -- I.......LOVE IT. Very, very gay girl idols. Very cute girls. A disastrous fangirl and her many miscommunications with her favorite idol member. Sometimes some problematic stuff, but I'm willing to overlook for how much I enjoy this show—it's hilarious and an absolute must-watch for idol fans who spend too much money for their oshi's. I've rewatched every episode 1-2 times. 😆
🔹 22/7 (nanabun no nijyuuni) -- WOW NOT YOUR TYPICAL IDOL ANIME AT ALL. Gets quite dark. Kind of weird but really interesting and a lot of heart. Instead of a clear plotline, each episode explores the backstory of a different member of the group..! It's insane. Do not have expectations.
🔹 Smile on the Runway (Runway de Waratte) -- Interesting blend of shoujo and shounen genres I think! Initially I thought it was shoujo because it's rather soft and features typically "feminine"-associated subjects: it's about a girl who wants to be a model and a guy who wants to be a fashion designer... but then some parts are paced in a way that make me think, "omg this is like a shokugeki but fashion" LOL. I wasn't too into it for the first 3 episodes but it gets better from 4 onwards when it introduces other characters and focuses more on the fashion design which is the more interesting aspect imo.
🔹 BOFURI: I Don't Want to Get Hurt, so I'll Max Out My Defense. -- I usually don't care for MMORPG-based anime but I'm surprisingly enjoying this one! Just really wholesome friendships and lighthearted world-exploring. Soft af.
🔹 IDOLiSH7: Second Beat! -- Technically this one shouldn't be on this list because only the 1st episode aired and the rest will continue airing in April (why???)... but whatever, I'm just happy that there's so much good idol anime right now. I really liked season 1 and it's looking like season 2 will be just as good if not better! It's a lot more of a typical idol anime but good story, good boys.
Carved deep into my heart
A quick catch-up post!
OH MY GOSH PARASITE'S GINORMOUS OSCARS SWEEP LAST WEEK!!! My coworkers forced me to watch that movie a few weeks ago—which I was interested in watching except I'm the most fragile scaredy-cat so it was nice to see it in a lit room full of people who had already watched it :'D... God, it is such a masterpiece. Blows my mind. It really deserves all the accolades so I'm happy that it's being recognized on this level T__T!!
Vídeography has been on my mind lately because of the MV that I directed last month and learning that I enjoy storyboards and shot lists and would like to improve at cínematography and coming up with interesting framing..... Parasite was just so inspiring on everyyyyy level—from the writing to the symbolism to the shot compositions to the blocking to the tasty visual storytelling—just everything. 👌👌👌 And since I just recently had my first experience as a director, I couldn't help but pay extra attention to Bong Joon Ho and his awesome storyboards and learning about his perspective and intentions. It was easy to fall in love with his hilariously lax, humble personality and his incredible interpreter Sharon Choi... I love her...... This tweet sums it up. I can't stop watching videos of her precisely multilingual, sharp hilarious brilliance and have optimistically high hopes for her as a fílmmaker!!! I feel like she could probably write comedy and I'd probably die laughing every 20 seconds...
Anyway, the reason I wanted to write about this was because of Bong Joon Ho's speech when he won Best Directing. I love it for a lot of reasons—the heartfelt shout outs to the other directors, giving credit to who and what inspired him, joking about sawing the trophy into pieces, Sharon Choi being a delight as always, their chemistry together, the "THANK YOU, I WILL DRINK UNTIL NEXT MORNING" LMAO.
But most of all!!! It hit me really hard when he quoted Scorsese's words: "The most personal is the most creative."
Because it reminded me of the post that I wrote a few months ago when I was stressed about the MV, called "directional failure." It makes me feel....validated? I was worried about it and I still think that I need tougher skin, but I think I was right to have this kind of belief and for wanting to embed a fragment of my personality into my work. And like perhaps I have something in common with Bong Joon Ho?
It almost feels like he was speaking directly to me. Really so inspiring. And honestly I had so much anxiety and fear after the MV shoot that it feels like it's helping me heal from it and be a little bit proud that I tried to be a director once. ;u;
So like I spent a full week totally incapacitated by a horrible stomach virus LOLOLOL. It started while I was staying at Fome's place an hour away and I felt so sick that he had to drive me home in my car and take public transportation back—bless his sweet soul 😭... I had to miss out on probably my only chance to ever see SuperM live... Everyday I gave my bosses the same update of "My symptoms are too terrible for me to come into the office today, but I'll do my best to hopefully come in tomorrow!" over and over and over... Absolutely shitty experience, would not recommend LOL. You'd think that spending a week at home would at least allow me to work on mixing or consume a lot of entertainment BUT NO....NO FUN OR PRODUCTIVITY; JUST HEADACHES AND PAIN AND BATHROOM AND BED ONLY.
Anyway, FINALLY now 15 days after it first started I can say that I think I'm 100% recovered! And ever since I began being able to function again, things have been really great!! To make up for frustratingly lost productivity, I decided that unless I'm spending time with friends, I'll be spending at least 1-2 hours mixing or recording everyday. I'm doing it pretty healthily too so far as I still leave time to sleep and watch anime (YO IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN SO INVESTED IN SO MUCH ANIME... I LOVE THIS SEASON ^u^) and I just spent 2 days of quality time with friends doing really fun things and feeling like I'm being myself and happy.
PS: Also watched Sonic and Birds of Prey in the past few days and while they were not masterpieces, they were little exploding sacks of fun and both offered a lot of creativity—the former in its quippy writing, and the latter in its action and set design!
OH MY GOSH PARASITE'S GINORMOUS OSCARS SWEEP LAST WEEK!!! My coworkers forced me to watch that movie a few weeks ago—which I was interested in watching except I'm the most fragile scaredy-cat so it was nice to see it in a lit room full of people who had already watched it :'D... God, it is such a masterpiece. Blows my mind. It really deserves all the accolades so I'm happy that it's being recognized on this level T__T!!
Vídeography has been on my mind lately because of the MV that I directed last month and learning that I enjoy storyboards and shot lists and would like to improve at cínematography and coming up with interesting framing..... Parasite was just so inspiring on everyyyyy level—from the writing to the symbolism to the shot compositions to the blocking to the tasty visual storytelling—just everything. 👌👌👌 And since I just recently had my first experience as a director, I couldn't help but pay extra attention to Bong Joon Ho and his awesome storyboards and learning about his perspective and intentions. It was easy to fall in love with his hilariously lax, humble personality and his incredible interpreter Sharon Choi... I love her...... This tweet sums it up. I can't stop watching videos of her precisely multilingual, sharp hilarious brilliance and have optimistically high hopes for her as a fílmmaker!!! I feel like she could probably write comedy and I'd probably die laughing every 20 seconds...
Anyway, the reason I wanted to write about this was because of Bong Joon Ho's speech when he won Best Directing. I love it for a lot of reasons—the heartfelt shout outs to the other directors, giving credit to who and what inspired him, joking about sawing the trophy into pieces, Sharon Choi being a delight as always, their chemistry together, the "THANK YOU, I WILL DRINK UNTIL NEXT MORNING" LMAO.
But most of all!!! It hit me really hard when he quoted Scorsese's words: "The most personal is the most creative."
Because it reminded me of the post that I wrote a few months ago when I was stressed about the MV, called "directional failure." It makes me feel....validated? I was worried about it and I still think that I need tougher skin, but I think I was right to have this kind of belief and for wanting to embed a fragment of my personality into my work. And like perhaps I have something in common with Bong Joon Ho?
It almost feels like he was speaking directly to me. Really so inspiring. And honestly I had so much anxiety and fear after the MV shoot that it feels like it's helping me heal from it and be a little bit proud that I tried to be a director once. ;u;
~✨~✨~
So like I spent a full week totally incapacitated by a horrible stomach virus LOLOLOL. It started while I was staying at Fome's place an hour away and I felt so sick that he had to drive me home in my car and take public transportation back—bless his sweet soul 😭... I had to miss out on probably my only chance to ever see SuperM live... Everyday I gave my bosses the same update of "My symptoms are too terrible for me to come into the office today, but I'll do my best to hopefully come in tomorrow!" over and over and over... Absolutely shitty experience, would not recommend LOL. You'd think that spending a week at home would at least allow me to work on mixing or consume a lot of entertainment BUT NO....NO FUN OR PRODUCTIVITY; JUST HEADACHES AND PAIN AND BATHROOM AND BED ONLY.
Anyway, FINALLY now 15 days after it first started I can say that I think I'm 100% recovered! And ever since I began being able to function again, things have been really great!! To make up for frustratingly lost productivity, I decided that unless I'm spending time with friends, I'll be spending at least 1-2 hours mixing or recording everyday. I'm doing it pretty healthily too so far as I still leave time to sleep and watch anime (YO IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN SO INVESTED IN SO MUCH ANIME... I LOVE THIS SEASON ^u^) and I just spent 2 days of quality time with friends doing really fun things and feeling like I'm being myself and happy.
PS: Also watched Sonic and Birds of Prey in the past few days and while they were not masterpieces, they were little exploding sacks of fun and both offered a lot of creativity—the former in its quippy writing, and the latter in its action and set design!
Between the Screens
With the music video and the health scare (which turned out to apparently be nothing other than lack of exercise? so been easing back into practicing K/DA dance ✌) it has been quite the year of 2020 already for me........................ The hell. LOL.
[Edit: speaking of health scares, I started writing this before the heartbreaking coronavírus outbreak.. ;;; everyone please take care and stay healthy!]
[Edit: speaking of health scares, I started writing this before the heartbreaking coronavírus outbreak.. ;;; everyone please take care and stay healthy!]
SCREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAMMMMMSSSSSSS there'sbeensomuchpressureit'sbeencrazy
So the music video idea was born out of my bosses wanting to challenge me with the experience of directing a project for the first time—but "low pressure" since it wouldn't be a client project. It could've just been a small thing, for example a "how to make a cocktail" video was a contender—until one of my bosses was like OR CONSIDER......PH0EN1X 4SH MUS1C V1DEO................IT'S ALWAYS BEEN MY DREAM TO WORK ON A MUSIC VIDEO...................... and I thought about it for a day and was like... y'know what, same. I was frightened as heck about doing it but that was the project I chose knowing that it would bring the most fulfillment to all of us.
And then it all grew out of control LOL. Initially we imagined it'd be a pretty scrappy low-budget project, that with just 5 or 6 of us, we'd make it work and it'd be a hands-on learning experience for the whole team. Then we secured an amazing [expensive] location... And our cínematographer got his new, shiny cínema camera that's worth more than his life savings... So everything demanded more, bigger, better, prettier, higher quality, everything that this shoot now deserved. My bosses allowed us to put more budget into this, we expanded the crew to 17 people(!!), and it became the most legitimate production that I've ever been on.
Stepper - A Path To You
【オリジナルMV】 Stepper - A Path To You (English Cover) 【8人合唱】
YAYY I was looking forward to this chorus and it's finally out in the world in all its delightfully uplifting glory! Angela and Jefferz organized this and I believe it might be my first time singing translyrics? Probably? Can't remember for sure. I love the energy in this—I've been looping it a lot and it's a collab full of people that I admire! 💓
"Everything's all right! Some days I'll just feel down.
All right! Happy days will be around!"
(Hoping that this year, even more collabs that I'm in will be released 🤞)
💖💖💖 Hoping to get back into casual blogging habits, even if I have nothing significant to say!! I spent waaay too much time last month writing my decade letter to myself, rereading a ton of old posts to get a more accurate sense of my growth, proofreading, rewriting til it felt right, trimming down when it got too long, checking it over and over to make sure the formatting was okay and I was comfortable with publicly posting all of that....... I'm a little burnt out from all the serious bzns blogging looool so I'm going to take my time with reviewing my resolutions and coming up with my 100 for this year!
I keep lying.... I don't even remember how long it's been since I started asserting, "My next solo cover venture will definitely be K/DA!!!" but yeah.. The last time I cut the queue was because of Fruits Basket which was reminiscent of the first cover I ever posted on youtube; and this time it's because Frozen is the one movie that I seem to resonate the most with and I'm also loving Frozen 2 and all the themes of isolation and embracing one's true self and letting down your fortress walls hit hard 😭 I was hoping that Frozen 2 wouldn't have any songs that I'd want to sing, but honestly I knew it from the moment I heard Elsa's new climactic song Show Yourself....
It's been a long time since I've done a multi-language cover so I wanted to try bringing that back!! I started recording it last week—after I came home one day at midnight because I was so embarrassed by my shaky performance at karaoke with friends that night, I wanted to record a revenge cover lololol. I keep fluctuating between being proud of my singing in this to wishing I were a stronger singer, idk... I miss when I used to be able to quickly record and finish covers!! Nowadays it takes way too long and I keep being dissatisfied with my takes! Also really painfully aware of how bad my pronunciation is in, like, every language aaaa. I either haven't had the time or haven't felt like singing for the past few days so I just keep feeling like, damn, I'm never gonna finish this cover.. Was hoping it'd be a quick one because I have a lot of other things to focus on this month. 😭
Like the music video! Been spending the past few [long] nights working on the storyboard and I'm pretty proud of it! Glad to have made progress there at least ;v;
I keep lying.... I don't even remember how long it's been since I started asserting, "My next solo cover venture will definitely be K/DA!!!" but yeah.. The last time I cut the queue was because of Fruits Basket which was reminiscent of the first cover I ever posted on youtube; and this time it's because Frozen is the one movie that I seem to resonate the most with and I'm also loving Frozen 2 and all the themes of isolation and embracing one's true self and letting down your fortress walls hit hard 😭 I was hoping that Frozen 2 wouldn't have any songs that I'd want to sing, but honestly I knew it from the moment I heard Elsa's new climactic song Show Yourself....
It's been a long time since I've done a multi-language cover so I wanted to try bringing that back!! I started recording it last week—after I came home one day at midnight because I was so embarrassed by my shaky performance at karaoke with friends that night, I wanted to record a revenge cover lololol. I keep fluctuating between being proud of my singing in this to wishing I were a stronger singer, idk... I miss when I used to be able to quickly record and finish covers!! Nowadays it takes way too long and I keep being dissatisfied with my takes! Also really painfully aware of how bad my pronunciation is in, like, every language aaaa. I either haven't had the time or haven't felt like singing for the past few days so I just keep feeling like, damn, I'm never gonna finish this cover.. Was hoping it'd be a quick one because I have a lot of other things to focus on this month. 😭
Like the music video! Been spending the past few [long] nights working on the storyboard and I'm pretty proud of it! Glad to have made progress there at least ;v;
A Letter to Myself Throughout the Decade 💌
Monday, December 30, 2019
2 comments Labels: #highlight, pictures, rambling but with slightly more thought, work
[ CW: non-consequential suicidal ideology ]
To the me from ten years ago... hello!!
Writing this is 26-year-old Eva who has been working in video production for 4 years now and is still blogging, doing online karaoke, and many of the things you already loved in your time! And I have some pretty exciting news. :>
Sixteen-year-old junior in high school, huh? I imagine this must have been the time when I felt the most pressure about figuring out my future; yet having absolutely no idea, no real ambitions, no pull of direction in the slightest, not even the expectation of staying alive for too much longer...
Well good news! I not only survived—this Eva is now living strong, and she's not who you would've ever expected to become.
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